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important pictures； they were all wicked women。 Poisonous。 Adulterers。 One who kills her own child。 Really unforgivable women。〃
〃But don't most actors prefer to play bad characters？ Isn't it more fun？〃
〃Oh it is。 And I had a lot to inspire me。〃
〃Inspire you？〃
〃As a child； I saw wickedness with my own eyes。 I had it's hands on me。 Worse； it possessed me。〃 Her voice grew cold and dark。 〃My mother ran a whorehouse； did I ever tell you that？ And when I was ten or so； she just decided one night it was time to make me available to the customers。〃
〃Jesus。〃
〃That's what I said to myself。 Every night； I said： Jesus； please help me。 Jesus； please e and take me away from this wicked woman。 Take me to heaven。 But he never came。 I had to run away。 Three times I ran away and my brothers found me and dragged me back。 Once she let them have me； as a reward for finding me。〃
〃Your own brothers？〃
〃Five of them。〃
〃Christ。〃
〃Anyway； I succeeded in escaping her eventually； and when you're a thirteen…year…old； and you're out in the world on your own； you see a lot thirteen…year…olds shouldn't have to see。〃
〃I'm sure you did。〃
〃So I put all that I saw into those women。 That's why people believed in them。 I was playing them for real。〃 She fumbled at the inside of the door。 〃Is there some way to open this window？〃
〃Oh yes。 It's right there。 A little black button。 Push it down。〃
She pushed and opened the window a crack。 〃That's better；〃 she said。
〃You can have it all the way down。〃
〃No； this is fine。 I'll take it in stages I think。〃
〃Yes； of course。〃
〃Going back to the pictures； I wonder if you'd do me a favor； when we get back to the house？〃
〃Of course。 What？〃
〃In my bedroom in the guest…house there are six or seven posters from those early films of mine。 I've had them up there for so long； all around the bed。 I think it's time I got rid of them。 Will you burn them for me？〃
〃Are you sure you want them burned？ They're worth a fortune。〃
〃Then take them for yourself。 Put them up for auction。 And the bed。 You want the bed too？〃
〃There isn't room for it in my apartment； but if you want me to get rid of it for you…〃
〃Yes； please。〃
〃No problem。〃
〃If you make some money from it； then spend it。 Enjoy it。〃
〃Thank you。〃
〃No； it's me who should be thanking you。 You've been a great fort tome。〃
〃May I ask you why？〃
〃Why what？〃
〃Why are you getting rid of all that stuff now？〃
〃Because everything's changed for me。 That woman I used to be has gone。 So are all the things she stood for。〃
〃They were just films。〃
〃They were more than that。 They were my memories。 And now's the time to let go of them。 I want to start over with Todd。〃
Jerry drew a deep breath to reply to this； but then thought better of it and kept his silence。 Katya was acutely aware of every nuance in her immediate locality； however； even this。
〃Say what's on your mind；〃 she said。
〃It's none of my business。〃
〃Say it anyway。 Go on。〃
〃Well。 I just hope you're not relying too much on Todd Pickett。 You know he's not all that reliable。 None of them are； these younger guys。 They're all talk。〃
〃He's different。〃
〃I hope so。〃
〃We can't ever know why things happen between two people。 But when it feels right； you have to go with your instincts。〃
〃If he's so right for you； why did he run out on you？〃
〃That was my fault； not his。 I showed him some things which were more than he was ready to see。 I won't make that mistake again。 And then he had some woman with him； Tammy Somebody…or…Other； who was just trying to steal him away。 Do you know her？〃
〃Tammy？ No。 I don't know a Tammy。 Oh wait。 I do。 I had a call from the police in Sacramento。 She went missing。〃
〃And they called you。 Why？〃
〃Because I know Todd。 Apparently； this Tammy woman runs his fan…club。〃
Katya started to laugh。
〃That's all she is to him？〃 she said。
〃Apparently。〃
〃She runs his fan…club？〃
〃That's my understanding。〃
〃So there's no romance between them？〃
〃No。 I don't even think they really know one another。〃
〃Well； that solves that。〃
〃It does and it doesn't；〃 Jerry said cautiously。 〃She still persuaded him to go with her。〃
〃Then it's up to me to persuade him to e home；〃 Katya purred。 She pressed her window button； and kept it down until the window was entirely open。 Jerry caught a glimpse of her in the mirror。 The last of her caution and her fear had evaporated。 She was luxuriating in the warm wind against her face； eyes closed； hair shining。
〃How much farther？〃 she asked him； without opening her eyes。
〃Another ten minutes。〃
〃I can smell the ocean。〃
〃Well； we're at Fourth Street。 Four blocks over； there's the beach。〃
〃I love the sea。〃
〃Todd has a yacht； did you know that？ It's docked in San Diego。〃
〃You see。 Perfect。〃 She opened her eyes； catching Jerry's gaze in the mirror； demanding a response from him。
〃Yes； it's perfect；〃 he said。
She smiled。 〃Thank you；〃 she said。
〃For what？〃
〃For everything。 Bringing me here。 Listening to me； indulging me。 When things have settled down and Todd and I have made the Canyon a more civilized place； we're going to start inviting people over； just a few special friends； to share the beauty of the place。 You never saw the house at its best。 But you will。 It is magnificent。〃
〃Oh I'm sure。〃
〃And that's how it's going to be again； after tonight。〃
〃Magnificent？〃
〃Magnificent。〃
EIGHT
This was Tammy's Cinderella moment： her dream e true。 All right； perhaps all the details weren't perfect。 She could have looked a little more glamorous； and she would have liked to have lost another twenty…five pounds。 And they could have been ing in through the front door instead of slipping in at the side to avoid the photographers。 But she was happy to take what fate was giving her： and fate was giving her a chance to walk into an A…list party on the arm of Todd Pickett。
Everywhere she looked there were famous faces； famous smiles； famous gazes； famous figures swathed in gowns by famous designers； famous fools making jokes that had everyone in their circle breathless with laughter； famous power…brokers telling tales of how they'd made a million in a minute； and the less famous wives of these power…brokers listening with their lids half…closed because if they had a buck for every time they'd heard these tired old tales they'd be able to divorce their dead…weights of husbands。
And hanging on the arms of the famous （much as she was hanging on Todd's arm） were younger men and women who watched their panions with the kind of eyes Tammy was reserving for the hors d'oeuvres。 There was appetite in those eyes。 One day； those gazes seem to say； I will have all that you have。 I will own cars and yachts and palaces and houses。 I will have a small vineyard in Tuscany and a large ranch in Big Sky Country。 There will be no door that will be closed to me； no ear that will not attend to my concerns。 When I drop my purse； somebody will pick it up for me。 When my car is empty of gas； it will be miraculously filled （and the ashtrays emptied）。 If the drink in my hand is