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Nynaeve；〃 she said firmly。 〃You are going to sleep now； and in the morning you are not going to say one word about what a miserable wretch you are。 If you cannot behave like the clearheaded woman you are； I will ask Cerandin to give you two black eyes for the one I took away。 You did not even thank me for that。 Now go to sleep！〃
Nynaeve's eyes widened indignantly … at least she did not look on the point of tears … but Elayne slid them shut with her fingers。 They closed easily； and despite softly murmured protests； the deep slow breath of sleep followed quickly。
Elayne patted Nynaeve's shoulder before straightening。 She hoped it was a peaceful sleep； with dreams of Lan； but any sort of sleep was better for her now than none。 Fighting a yawn； she bent to check Birgitte。 She could not tell whether the woman's color or breathing was any better。 There was nothing to do but wait and hope。
The lamps did not seem to be bothering either of the women； so she left them alight and sat on the floor between the beds。 They should help keep her awake。 Not that she knew why she should remain awake； really。 She had done what she could as much as Nynaeve had。 Unthinkingly she leaned back against the front wall； and her chin sank slowly to her chest。
The dream was a pleasant one； if odd。 Rand knelt before her； and she put a hand on his head and bonded him as her Warder。 One of her Warders； she would have to choose Green now； with Birgitte。 There were other women there； faces changing between one glance and the next。 Nynaeve； Min； Moiraine； Aviendha； Berelain； Amathera； Liandrin； others she did not know。 Whoever they were； she knew that she had to share him with them； because in the dream she was certain that that was what Min had viewed。 She was not sure how she felt about that … some of those faces she wanted to claw to shreds … but if it was fated by the Pattern； it would have to be。 Yet she would have one thing of him the others could never have； the bond between Warder and Aes Sedai。
〃Where is this place？〃 Berelain said； raven…haired and so beautiful that Elayne wanted to bare her teeth。 The woman wore the low…cut red dress that Luca wanted Nynaeve to wear； she always dressed revealingly。 〃Wake up。 This is not Tel'aran'rhiod。〃
Elayne started awake to find Birgitte leaning over the side of the bed； gripping her arm weakly。 Her face was too pale； and damp with sweat as if a fever had broken； but her blue eyes were sharp and intent on Elayne's face。
〃This is not Tel'aran'rhiod。〃 It was not a question； but Elayne nodded； and Birgitte sank back with a long sigh。 〃I remember everything；〃 she whispered。 〃I am here as I am； and I remember。 All is changed。 Gaidal is out there； somewhere； an infant； or even a young boy。 But even if I find him； what will he think of a woman more than old enough to be his mother？〃 She scrubbed angrily at her eyes； muttering； 〃I do not cry。 I never cry。 I remember that； the Light help me。 I never cry。〃
Elayne got up on her knees beside the woman's bed。 〃You will find him； Birgitte。〃 She kept her voice low。 Nynaeve still seemed sound asleep … a small； rasping snore rose from her regularly … but she needed rest； not to confront this all over again now。 〃Somehow you will。 And he will love you。 I know he will。〃
〃Do you think that is what matters？ I could stand him not loving me。〃 Her glistening eyes gave her the lie。 〃He will need me； Elayne； and I will not be there。 He always has more courage than is good for him； I always must supply him with caution。 Worse； he will wander； searching for me； not knowing what he is looking for； not knowing why he feels inplete。 We are always together； Elayne。 Two halves of a whole。〃 The tears welled up； flowing across her face。 〃Moghedien said she would make me cry forever； and she。。。〃 Suddenly her features contorted； low ragged sobs came as if ripped from her throat。
Elayne gathered the taller woman into her arms； murmuring words of fort she knew were useless。 How would she feel if Rand were taken away from her？ The thought was nearly enough to make her put her head down atop Birgitte's and join her weeping。
She was not sure how long it took Birgitte to cry herself out； but eventually she pushed Elayne away and settled back； wiping her cheeks with her fingers。 〃I have never done that except as a small child。 Never。〃 Twisting her neck； she frowned at Nynaeve； still asleep on the other bed。 〃Did Moghedien hurt her badly？ I have not seen anyone trussed like that since the Tourag took Mareesh。〃 Elayne must have looked confused； because she added； 〃In another Age。 Is she hurt？〃
〃Not badly。 Her spirit； mainly。 What you did allowed her to escape； but only after。。。〃 Elayne could not make herself say it。 Too many wounds were too fresh。 〃She blames herself。 She thinks that。。。 everything。。。 is her fault； for asking you to help。〃
〃If she had not asked me； Moghedien would be teaching her to beg right now。 She has as little caution as Gaidal。〃 Birgitte's dry tone sounded odd with her wet cheeks。 〃She did not drag me into this by my hair。 If she claims responsibility for the consequences； then she claims responsibility for my actions。〃 If anything； she sounded angry。 〃I am a free woman； and I made my own choices。 She did not decide for me。〃
〃I must say you are； taking this better than。。。 I would。〃 She could not say 〃better than Nynaeve。〃 That was true； but the other was as well。
〃I always say； if you must mount the gallows； give a jest to the crowd； a coin to the hangman； and make the drop with a smile on your lips。〃 Birgitte's smile was grim。 〃Moghedien sprang the trap； but my neck is not yet snapped。 Perhaps I will surprise her before it is done。〃 The smile faded into a frown as she studied Elayne。 〃I can。。。 feel you。 I think I could close my eyes and point to you a mile away。〃
Elayne took a very deep breath。 〃I bonded you as a Warder；〃 she said in a rush。 〃You were dying； and Healing did no good； and。。。〃 The woman was looking at her。 Not frowning anymore； but her eyes were disconcertingly sharp。 〃There was no other choice； Birgitte。 You would have died； else。〃
〃A Warder；〃 Birgitte said slowly。 〃I think I remember hearing a tale of a female Warder； but it was in a life so long ago that I cannot remember more than that。〃
It was time for another deep breath； and this time she had to force the words。 〃There is something you should know。 You will discover it sooner or later； and I've decided not to keep things from people who have a right to know； not unless I absolutely must。〃 A third breath。 〃I am not Aes Sedai。 I am only Accepted。〃
For a long moment； the golden…braided woman stared up at her； then slowly shook her head。 〃An Accepted。 In the Trolloc Wars； I knew an Accepted who bonded a fellow。 Barashelle was due to be tested the next day for raising to full Aes Sedai； and certain to be given the shawl； but she was afraid that a woman testing that same day would take him。 In the Trolloc Wars； the Tower tried to raise women as quickly as possible； from necessity。〃
〃What happened？〃 Elayne could not stop herself from asking。 Barashelle？ That name sounded