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s from my father's stick； another matchbox with a couple of Eric's first teeth set in cotton wool； a phial with some of my father's hair； another with some rust and paint scraped from the bridge to the mainland。 I lit wasp candles； closed my eyes； held the matchbox coffin in front of my forehead so that I could feel the wasp in there from inside my head； an itching； tickling sensation just inside my skull。 After that I blew the candles out； covered the altar； stood up； dusted down my cords； took up the photograph of Eric I'd placed on the glass of the Factory and wrapped the coffin in it； secured it with a rubber band and put the package in my jacket pocket。
I walked slowly along the beach towards the Bunker； my hands in my pockets； my head down； watching the sand and my feet but not really watching them。 Everywhere I turned there was fire。 The Factory had said it twice； I had turned to it instinctively when attacked by the rogue buck； and it was squeezed into every spare corner of my memory。 Eric brought it closer all the time； too。
I brought my face up to the sharp air and the pastel blues and pink of the new sky； feeling the damp breeze； hearing the hiss of the distant； outgoing tide。 Somewhere a sheep bleated。
I had to try Old Saul； I had to make the attempt to contact my mad； crazy brother before these many fires conjoined and swept Eric away； or swept my life on the island away。 I tried to pretend to myself that it might not really be that serious； but I knew in my bones it was； the Factory does not lie； and for once it had been paratively specific。 I was worried。
In the Bunker； with the wasp's coffin resting in front of Old Saul's skull and the light ing out through the sockets of his long…dried eyes； I knelt in the pungent darkness before the altar； head bowed。 I thought of Eric； I remembered him as he was before he had his unpleasant experience； when； although he had been away from the island； he was still really part of it。 I remembered him as the clever； kind； excitable boy he had been； and I thought of what he was now： a force of fire and disruption approaching the sands of the island like a mad angel； head swarming with echoing screams of madness and delusion。
I leaned forward and put my right hand palm down on the top of the old dog's cranium； keeping my eyes closed。 The candle was not long lit； and the bone was only warm。 Some unpleasant； cynical part of my mind told me that I looked like Mr Spock in Star Trek； doing a mind…meld or whatever； but I ignored it； that didn't matter anyway。 I breathed deeply； thought more deeply。 Eric's face swam in front of me； freckles and sandy hair and anxious smile。 A young face； thin and intelligent and young； the way I thought of him when I tried to remember him when he was happy； during our summers together on the island。
I concentrated； pressured my guts and held my breath； as though I was trying to force a turd out when constipated； the blood roared in my ears。 With my other hand I used forefinger and thumb to press my closed eyes into my own skull while my other hand grew hot on Old Saul's。 I saw lights； random patterns like spreading ripples or huge fingerprints； swirling。
I felt my stomach clench itself involuntarily and a wave of what felt like fiery excitement swept up from it。 Only acids and glands； I knew； but I felt it transport me； from one skull through another to another。 Eric！ I was getting through！ I could feel him； feel the aching feet； the blistered soles； the quivering legs； the sweat…stuck grimy hands； the itching； unwashed scalp； I could smell him as myself； see through those eyes that hardly closed and burned in his skull； raw and shot with blood； blinking drily。 I could feel the remains of some awful meal lying dead in my stomach； taste burned meat and bone and fur on my tongue； I was there！ I was…
A blast of fire crashed out at me。 I was thrown back； slammed away from the altar like a piece of soft shrapnel and bounced off the earth…covered concrete floor to e to rest by the far wall； my head buzzing； my right hand aching。 I fell over to one side and curled up around myself。
I lay breathing deeply for a while； hugging my sides and rocking very slightly； my head scraping on the floor of the Bunker。 My right hand felt as though it was the size and colour of a boxing…glove。 With every slowing beat of my heart it sent a pulse of pain up my arm。 I crooned to myself and slowly sat up； rubbing my eyes and still rocking very slightly； my knees and head ing a little closer； drawing slightly back。 I tried to nurse my battered ego back to health。
Across the Bunker； as the dim view swam back to focus； I could see the skull still glowing； the flame still burning。 I glared at it and brought my right hand up； started licking it。 I looked to see if my flight across the floor had damaged anything but as far as I could see everything was in its place； only I had been affected。 I gave a shivery sigh and relaxed； letting my head rest on the cool concrete of the wall behind me。
I leaned forward after a while and placed the palm of my hand； still throbbing； on the floor of the Bunker； letting it cool。 I kept it there for a while； then brought it up and wiped some of the soil off it； squinting to see if there was any visible damage； but the light was too poor。 I got slowly to my feet and went to the altar。 I lit the side candles with shaking hands； put the wasp with the rest in the plastic rack to the left of the altar and burned its temporary coffin on the metal plate in front of Old Saul。 Eric's photograph took flame； the boyish face disappearing in fire。 I blew through one of Old Saul's eyes and put the candle out。
I stood for a moment； collecting my thoughts； then went to the metal door of the Bunker and opened it。 The silky light of a cloud…bright morning flooded in and made me grimace。 I turned back； put out the other candles and took another look at my hand。 The palm was red and inflamed。 I licked it again。
Almost I had succeeded。 I was sure I had had Eric in my grasp； had his mind there under my hand and been part of him； seen the world through his eyes； heard his blood pump in his head； felt the ground beneath his feet； smelled his body and tasted his last meal。 But he had been too much for me。 The conflagration in his head was just too strong for anybody sane to cope with。 It had a lunatic strength of total mitment about it which only the profoundly mad are continually capable of； and the most ferocious soldiers and most aggressive sportsmen able to emulate for a while。 Every particle of Eric's brain was concentrated on his mission of returning and setting fire； and no normal brain…not even mine； which was far from normal and more powerful than most… could match that marshalling of forces。 Eric was mitted to Total War； a Jihad； he was riding the Divine Wind to at least his own destruction； and there was nothing I could do about it this way。
I locked up the Bunker and went back along the beach to the house； my head down again and even more thoughtful and troubled than I had been on the outward journey。
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