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mirror…image maps of the palms； the pencil…calluses； the intricate whorls of the fingertips。 He took a finger into his mouth and sucked softly； heard Trevor's breath catch。
〃Your tongue feels like velvet。〃
〃Your hands taste like seawater。〃
Zach kissed the fold of Trevor's left wrist； then ran his tongue along the forearm and into the soft hollow of the elbow。 Trevor sighed 。and relaxed a little； though his pulse still beat like a frightened bird against Zach's tongue。 The veins of the inner elbow： the junkie veins； the veins to sever if you wanted to bleed to death。
Zach slid his mouth down Trevor's arm and kissed the raised white lines of his scars。 He had hesitated to do this before； unsure if Trevor would mind。 Now the scars' rippled texture was so appealing that he couldn't help himself。 Zach imagined the razor going through Trevor's flesh smooth as butter； Trevor's icy eyes screaming out of his impassive face as he watched the blood well up。
Trevor made a soft moaning sound deep in his throat。 Zach sucked harder at the tender flesh； and the scar he was kissing opened against his tongue like a torrid kiss。 The coppery taste of fresh blood spilled into his mouth。
Trevor felt a silvery stinging sensation in his arm； then another and another； then three at once； a deep bone…shivering pain。 He raised himself on his right elbow； saw the old cuts on his left arm opening； parting like little red mouths。 Zach stared up at him in confusion； then in horror as he realized Trevor was seeing the blood too。 Deep wet crimson ringed his mouth and streaked his face； shocking against the whiteness of his skin。
〃Trev？ What 。 。 。 ？〃
Trevor felt weirdly serene。 The open wounds hurt no more than they had when he'd made them。 It was； rather； a way of draining off pain。 He remembered the feeling so well now。 〃It's nearly here；〃 he said。
〃What？〃
〃Birdland。〃
Zach's pupils were enormous； guttering。 His mouth hung slightly open。 Trevor took his hands； pulled him up and held him； smearing Zach's body with blood。 He kissed Zach's sticky lips。 〃Don't be scared。〃
〃But 。 。 。 aren't you bleeding？〃
〃Only for a little while。〃
〃Trevor！ Have your stigmata； then； goddammit； but don't pull this mystical shit on me！〃 Zach pounded the mattress。 〃Don't you dare die…if you die； I swear to God I'll e after you…I'll hunt you down and haunt your damn ghost…〃
〃I'm not dying。 e here。 Hold me。〃 He wrapped his arms tighter around Zach； felt the blood flowing between them； trickling down Zach's spine。 I have to go； he thought。 You're the only thing that will bring me back。 But that would just frighten Zach worse； so he didn't say it。
He didn't know where he was going； or even how。 He knew it would be Birdland； the true Birdland that lay paradoxically far beyond the house and deep within it。 But Trevor was realizing that Birdland wasn't just the place of his past； the place in his childhood where he had found his talent； his dreams。 It was also the place where his dreams could find him； and some of them were very bad。 It was a place of scars； and of wounds that had never healed。
〃Just don't leave me here；〃 Zach murmured against his chest。
〃I promise。〃
Trevor remembered lying in bed this afternoon imagining Zach's body inextricably linked with his； remembered his fantasy of Zach's flesh flowing over him； surrounding him。 He pressed his body up against Zach's； wrapped his legs around Zach's skinny hips。 〃I want you to fuck me；〃 he said。
〃Huh？ Now？〃
〃Yes。 Now。〃
Emotions were warring in Zach's face： confusion； fear； sorrow； frustration； arousal。 Trevor felt Zach's penis growing cautiously hard against the back of his thigh。 He reached down and cupped Zach's balls； ran his hand up the silky shaft； streaking it with blood。 Zach shuddered； took a deep breath。 〃Are you sure？〃
But apparently he could see the answer in Trevor's face。 His eyes never left Trevor's as he wet his hand with saliva and rubbed it up and down his penis； then lifted Trevor's knees and spread his legs and eased in。 The sensation was not so much painful as pletely alien。 Trevor felt his asshole trying to contract； his whole body trying to tense up。 He sought Zach's mouth and sucked at his tongue。 He would have this boy inside him any and every way he could。 It was time。
Then his intestines were loosening and warming； his muscles melting in concentric rings around Zach； drawing him in deep。 He linked his hands at the small of Zach's back。 Blood ran down his arms； dripped over their bodies； began to soak into the mattress。
〃Ahhh…〃 Zach's teeth closed on Trevor's shoulder； a tiny exquisite pain。 〃You're so tight。 It almost hurts。〃
〃You can fuck me hard。 You can open me up。〃
〃Yeah？〃 Zach scrambled to his knees； put his hands on Trevor's thighs and pushed them up and back； driving in still deeper。 His face was streaked with blood； his expression poised between pain and ecstasy。 〃Like that？ Does that feel good？〃
〃Yes…but harder…〃 Trevor groped for Zach's hand； guided it to his penis。 When Zach closed his fingers around the head and began to stroke； Trevor put his hand over Zach's and squeezed brutally。
〃Trev； I don't want to hurt you…〃
〃Harder！〃 Trevor sobbed。 〃I have to get there！〃
〃WHERE； DAMMIT？〃 Zach grabbed Trevor's chin with his free hand； forced Trevor to look him in the face。 Zach's eyes were huge； wild。 〃WHAT ARE YOU MAKING ME DO TO YOU？〃
The pleasure and the drugs overloaded Trevor's synapses with towering sensation。 But he felt a vortex beginning to open in his brain。 His consciousness swirled around the edges of it； began to be drawn into it。 He drove his hips up hard against Zach； impaling himself。 The area between his asshole and his balls and the tip of his penis felt like one huge raw nerve。 Zach's heartbeat throbbed deep in his guts。 Light poured out of the vortex； sparkling； swarming。
Beyond that vortex was Birdland。 If he was ever going to be with Zach again； he had to go there now。
Trevor let himself go。
〃Trev？ Trevor？！ GODDAMMIT； TREVOR！！！〃 Zach punched the pillow beside Trevor's head。 Trevor didn't move or seem to hear。
Zach had felt Trevor's back arching； Trevor's e welling into his palm and dripping between his ringers； and he had nearly e too。 But then Trevor had stopped moaning and his eyes had gone blank and he had fallen back on the mattress。
Zach's heart lurched painfully。 He felt for Trevor's heartbeat； listened for his breathing。 Both were strong and steady。 Trevor's eyes were half…open； blinking slowly。 But they were unfocused； and did not flicker when Zach passed his hand before them or peered into them。 Zach shivered。 Trevor's eyes looked abandoned。
〃Trev？〃 he whispered。 〃Remember； you promised not to leave me。〃
No response。
〃Trevor？ 。 。 。 Please？〃 Zach pressed his mouth against Trevor's slack lips； kissed hard。 Again no response。
He didn't think Trevor was in there。 Or perhaps Trevor had gone so deep that he couldn't hear。 A word rang in Zach's mind like the tolling of a deep dissonant bell。 Catotonia。
The thought scared him so badly that he grabbed Trevor by the shoulders an