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I stepped forward and I held out the purse again to him； and I said in a muffled voice； still veiling my face：
〃I beg you to take this as a kindness to me and that I might save my soul。 It's from your nephew； Andrei。 He is far； far away in the land to which the slave traders took him； and he will never e home。 But he is well and must share some of what he has with his family。 He bids me to tell him which of you lives and which of you is dead。 If I do not give you this money； and if you don't take it； I will be damned to Hell。〃
There came no response from them verbally。 But I had what I wanted from their minds。 I had all of it。 Yes； Ivan was alive； and now I； this strange man； was saying that Andrei lived too。 Ivan mourned for a son who not only lived but prospered。 Life is a tragedy； one way or another。 What is certain is that you die。
〃I beg you；〃 I said。
My uncle took the proffered purse but with misgivings。 It was full of gold ducats； which would buy anywhere。
I let my cloak drop and I pulled off my left glove； and then the rings that covered every finger of my left hand。 Opal； onyx； amethyst； topaz； turquoise。 I moved past the man and the boys； to the far side of the fire； and laid these respectfully in the lap of the old woman who had been my Mother as she looked up。
I could see that； in a moment； she would know who I was。 I covered my face again； but with my left hand； I took my dagger from my belt。 It was only a short Misericorde； that little dagger which a warrior takes into battle to dispatch his victims if they are too far gone for salvation and yet not dead。 It was a decorative thing； an ornament more than a weapon； and its gold…plated scabbard was thickly lined with perfect pearls。
〃For you；〃 I said。 〃For Andrei's Mother； who always loved her necklace of river pearls。 Take this for Andrei's soul。〃 I laid the dagger at my Mother's feet。
And then I made a deep； deep bow with my head almost touching the floor； and I went out； without looking back； closing the door behind me； and hovering near； to hear them as they jumped up and crowded about to see the rings and the dagger； and some to see to the lock。
For a moment； I was weak with emotion。 But nothing was going to stop me from what I meant to do。 I didn't turn to Marius； because it would have been craven to ask his support in this； or assent to it。 I went on down the muddy snowy street； through the sludge； towards the tavern nearest to the river； where I thought my Father might be。
I had rarely entered this place as a child； and then only to summon my Father home。 I had no real memory of it； except as a place where foreign people drank and cursed。
It was a long building； made of the same rude unfinished logs as my house； with the same mud for mortar； and the same inevitable seams and cracks to let in the dreadful cold。 Its roof was very high； with some six tiers to shed the weight of the snow； and its eaves too dripped with icicles； as had those of my house。
It marveled me that men could live like this； that the cold itself did not push them to make something more permanent and more sheltering； but it had always been the way of this place； it seemed to me； of the poor and the sick and overburdened and the hungry； that the brutal winter took too much from them； and that the short spring and summer gave them too little； and that resignation became their greatest virtue in the end。
But I might have been wrong then about all of it； and I might be wrong now。 What is important is this…it was a place of hopelessness； and though it was not ugly； for wood and mud and snow and sadness are not ugly； it was a place without beauty except for the ikons； and perhaps for the distant outline of the graceful domes of Santa Sofia； high on the hill； against the star…studded sky。 And that was not enough。
When I entered the tavern； I counted some twenty men at a glance； all of them drinking and talking to one another with a conviviality that surprised me； given the Spartan nature of this place； which was no more than a shelter against the night which kept them safely ranged round the big fire。 There were no ikons here to fort them。 But some of them were singing； and there was the inevitable harp player strumming his little stringed instrument； and another blowing on a small pipe。
There were many tables； some covered with linen； and others bare at which these fellows gathered； and some of the men were foreigners； as I had recalled。 Three were Italian； I heard this instantly； and figured them to be Genoese。 There were more foreigners indeed than I had expected。 But these were men drawn by the trade of the river； and perhaps Kiev did not do so poorly just now。
There were plenty of kegs of beer and wine behind the counter； where the bartender sold his stock by the cup。 I saw too many bottles of Italian wine； quite expensive no doubt； and crates of Spanish sack。
Lest I attract notice； I moved forward and far off to the left； into the depth of the shadows； where perhaps a European traveler clad in rich fur might not be noticed； for； after all； fine fur was one thing they did indeed seem to have。
These people were much too drunk to care who I was。 The bartender tried to get excited about the idea of a new customer； but then went back to snoozing on the palm of his upturned hand。 The music continued； another one of the dumy； and this one much less cheerful than the one my uncle had been singing at home； because I think the musician was very tired。
I saw my Father。
He lay on his back； full length； on a broad crude greasy bench； dressed in his leather jerkin and with his biggest heaviest fur cloak folded neatly over him； as though the others had done the honors with it after he had passed out。 This was bearskin； his cloak； which marked him as a pretty rich man。
He snored in his drunken sleep； and the fumes of the drink rose from him； and he didn't stir when I knelt right beside him and looked down into his face。
His cheeks though thinner were still rosy； but there were hollows beneath the bones； and there were streaks of gray； most prominent in his mustache and long beard。 It seemed to me that some of the hair of his temples was gone； and that his fine smooth brow was steeper； but this may have been an illusion。 The flesh all around his eyes was tender…looking and dark。 His hands； clutched together beneath the cloak； were not visible to me； but I could see that he was still strong； of powerful build； and his love of drink had not destroyed him yet。
I had a disturbing sense of his vitality suddenly； I could smell the blood of him and the life of him； as though of a possible victim stumbling across my path。 I put all this away from my mind and stared at him； loving him and thinking only that I was so glad that he was alive！ He had e out of the wild grasses。 He had escaped that party of raiders； who had seemed then the very heralds of death itself。
I pulled up a stool so that I might sit quietly beside my Father； studying his face。
I had not put on my left glove。
I laid my cold hand now on his forehead； lightly； not want