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〃Lord！〃 I cried again。
And back He stared at me； unmoving； eyes meeting my eyes； hands dangling from the iron chains and mouth dripping with blood。
Suddenly a fierce and terrible blow struck me。 It pitched me forward。 His Face filled all my sight。 Before my eyes it was the very measure of all that I could possibly see…His soiled and broken skin； the wetted； darkened tangle of His eyelashes； the great bright orbs of His dark…pupiled eyes。
Closer and closer it came； the blood flowing down and into His thick eyebrows； and dripping down His gaunt cheeks。 His mouth opened。 A sound came out of Him。 It was a sigh at first and then a dull rising breath that grew louder and louder as His Face became even larger； losing its very lineaments； and became the sum of all its swimming colors； the sound now a positive and deafening roar。
In terror； I cried out。 I was thrust back。 Yet even as I saw His familiar Figure and the ancient frame of His Face with its Thorny Crown； the Face grew ever larger and larger and utterly indistinct and seemed again to bear down on me； and then suddenly to suffocate all my face with its immense and total weight。
I screamed。 I was helpless； weightless； unable to draw breath。
I screamed as I've never in all my miserable years screamed； the scream so loud that it shut out the roar that filled my ears； but the vision pressed on； a great driving inescapable mass that had been His Face。
〃Oh； Lord！〃 I screamed with all the power of my burning lungs。 The very wind rushed in my ears。
Something struck the back of my head so hard that it cracked my skull。 I heard the crack。 I felt the wet splash of blood。
I opened my eyes。 I was staring forward。 I was far across the chapel； sprawled against the plaster wall； my legs out in front of me； my arms dangling； my head on fire with the pain of the great concussion where I had struck the wall。
Lestat had never moved。 I knew he hadn't。
No one had to tell me。 It was not he who threw me back。
I tumbled over onto my face； pulling my arm up under my head。 I knew there were feet gathered all around me； that Louis was near； and that even Gabrielle had e； and I knew too that Marius was taking Sybelle and Benjamin away。
I could hear in the ringing silence only Benjamin's small sharp mortal voice。 〃But what happened to him。 What happened？ The blond one didn't hit him。 I saw it。 It didn't happen。 He didn't…。〃
My face hidden； my face soaked with tears； I covered my head with my trembling hands； my bitter smile unseen； though my sobs were heard。
I cried and cried for a long time； and then gradually； as I knew it would； my scalp began to heal。 The evil blood mounted to the surface of my skin and； tingling there； did its evil ministrations； sewing up the flesh like a little laser beam from Hell。
Someone gave me a napkin。 It had the faint scent of Louis on it； but I couldn't be sure。 It was a long long time； perhaps even so long as an hour before I finally clasped it and wiped all the blood off my face。
It was another hour； an hour of quiet and of people respectfully slipping away； before I turned over and rose and sat back against the wall。 My head no longer hurt； the wound was gone； the blood that had dried there would soon flake away。
I stared at him for a long and quiet time。
I was cold and solitary and raw。 Nothing anyone murmured penetrated my hearing。 I did not note the gestures or the movements around me。
In the sanctum of my mind I went over； mostly slowly； exactly； what I had seen； what I had heard…all that I've told you here。
I rose finally。 I went back to him and I looked down at him。
Gabrielle said something to me。 It was harsh and mean。 I didn't actually hear it。 I heard only the sound of it； the cadence； that is； as if her old French； so familiar to me； was a language I didn't know。
I knelt down and I kissed his hair。
He didn't move。 He didn't change。 I wasn't the slightest bit afraid that he would； or hopeful that he would either。 I kissed him one more time on the side of his face； and then I got up； and I wiped my hands on the napkin which I still had； and I went out。
I think I stood in a torpor for a long while； and then something came back to me； something Dora had said a long long time ago； about a child having died in the attic； about a little ghost and about old clothes。
Grasping that； clutching it tight； I managed to propel myself towards the stairs。
It was there that I met you a short time afterwards。 Now you know； for better or worse； what I did or didn't see。
And so my symphony is finished。 Let me write my name to it。 When you're finished with your copying； I will give my transcript to Sybelle。 And Benji too perhaps。 And you may do with the rest what you will。
25
THIS IS NO EPILOGUE。 It is the last chapter to a tale I thought was finished。 I write it in my own hand。 It will be brief； for I have no drama left me and must manipulate with the utmost care the bare bones of the tale。
Perhaps in some later time the proper words will e to me to deepen my depiction of what happened； but for now to record is all that I can do。
I did not leave the convent after I inscribed my name to the copy which David had so faithfully written out。 It was too late。
The night had spent itself in language； and I had to retire to one of the secret brick chambers of the place which David showed me； a place where Lestat had once been imprisoned； and there sprawled on the floor in perfect darkness； overexcited by all that I'd told David； and； more pletely exhausted than I'd ever been； I went into immediate sleep with the rise of the sun。
At twilight； I rose； straightened out my clothes and returned to the chapel。 I knelt down and gave Lestat a kiss of unreserved affection； just as I had the night before。 I took no notice of anyone and did not even know who was there。
Taking Marius at his word； I walked away from the convent； in a wash of early evening violet light； my eyes drifting trustingly over the flowers； and I listened for the chords of Sybelle's Sonata to lead me to the proper house。
Within seconds I heard the music； the distant but rapid phrases of the Allegro assai； or the First Movement； of Sybelle's familiar song。
It was played with an unusual ringing preciseness； indeed； a new languid cadence which gave it a powerful and ruby…red authority which I immediately loved。
So I hadn't scared my little girl out of her mind。 She was well and prospering and perhaps falling in love with the drowsy humid loveliness of New Orleans as so many of us have。
I sped at once to the location； and found myself standing； only a little mussed by the wind； in front of a huge three…story redbrick house in Metairie； a countrified suburb of New Orleans which is actually very close to the city； with a feel that can be miraculously remote。
The giant oaks which Marius described were all around this new American mansion； and； as he had promised； all his French doors of shining clean panes were open to the early breeze。
The grass was lon