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his question。 〃I know why I don't think today was actual sex； but why don't you？〃
He smiled and did look away。 He answered looking down at the floorboard。 〃What we did the first time with you marking my back； that was closer to real sex for me。〃
〃So it was the dominance/submission thing？〃
〃No；〃 he said； still looking down。 〃If we'd really needed the condoms； then it would have been sex。〃
〃You mean intercourse；〃 I said。
He nodded； still not looking at me。
〃That's how I feel too。 Jean…Claude said I was fooling myself。〃
Nathaniel flashed me a small smile； then went back to staring at nothing。 〃He told me I was being very American； very male； and very young。〃
〃You are American； male； and twenty；〃 I said。 〃What else are you supposed to be？〃
He looked at me for a moment； then looked away again。 He was definitely unfortable now。
〃What else did Jean…Claude say？〃 I asked。
〃You'll be mad。〃
〃Just tell me； Nathaniel。〃
He shrugged； the thin straps of the tank top showing most of his shoulders as he did it。 〃He's hoping you'll choose me as your pomme de sang。 He said he mentioned it to you。〃
〃He mentioned it。〃
〃Can I undo the seat belt？〃 he asked。
〃Be my guest。〃
He let the belt slide to one side and turned so he was facing me； one leg drawn up into the seat； his braid curled over one shoulder。 〃Jean…Claude said that the more you fight the ardeur the stronger it grows； but if you feed when it first arises； then it's not such a big deal。〃
〃He told me；〃 I said。
〃He's afraid you'll try and tough it out tomorrow without him。 He's afraid you'll fight it all day； then only give in when you have to。〃
〃Sounds like a plan to me；〃 I said。
Nathaniel shook his head。 〃Don't be tough on this one； Anita； don't fight。 I'm afraid of what will happen if you do。〃
〃What； I'm supposed to roll over tomorrow morning and fall into your arms？〃 I couldn't keep the sarcasm out of my voice； though it brought a hurt look to his face； and made me want to apologize。 〃It's nothing personal； Nathaniel。 It's not you； it's having to do it that I don't like。〃
〃I know that。〃 He lowered his face； not meeting my eyes again。 〃Just promise me that when the hunger rises tomorrow that you'll turn to me； or to someone； early and not try to be so 。。。 tough。〃
〃What were you really going to say on the end of that sentence？〃
He smiled。 〃Stubborn。〃
I had to smile。 〃I don't think I can just roll over the first time the ardeur hits me。 I just can't give in that quickly； Nathaniel。 Do you understand that？〃
〃You have to prove you're tougher than it is；〃 he said。
〃No； I have to be who I am； and who I am doesn't just give in to anyone； or anything。〃
He grinned at me。 〃That's an understatement。〃
〃You're making fun of me；〃 I said。
〃A little；〃 he said。
〃You saw what I did to Jason's neck； Nathaniel。 What if I hurt you？ I mean really hurt you？〃
〃Jason will heal； Anita； and he wasn't plaining when Asher took him away。〃 Nathaniel grinned and looked away as if he were trying not to laugh。
〃What？〃
He shook his head。 〃You'll get mad； and he didn't mean it that way。〃
〃What did he say； Nathaniel？〃
〃Ask him yourself。 He always seems to be able to say outrageous things to you and you think it's cute。 When I say them； you just get mad。〃
〃What if I ordered you to tell me？〃
He seemed to think about it for a second； then flashed me another smile。 It was a good smile； young； relaxed； real。 When I'd first met Nathaniel he'd forgotten how to smile like that。 〃No； no I wouldn't。〃
〃Some submissive you are；〃 I said。
The smile widened to a grin。 〃You didn't like me submissive。 It made you unfortable。〃
〃So you're changing to please me？〃
The smile faded； but not like he wasn't happy； more like his expression had shifted from humor to thoughtful。 〃At first； but lately some of it's to please me； too。〃
That made me smile。 〃That's the best news I've had all night。〃
〃I'm glad；〃 he said。
I undid my own seat belt。 〃Let's get out of this car before we melt。〃 I opened the door and knew he'd do the same。 We closed the doors； and I hit the button on my key chain that locked the Jeep。 It made the little beeping sound； and I walked around the cars to the road； where the walking was smoother。 Nathaniel and I started walking down the line of cars towards my house。 His braid fell along his spine like a long； thick tail； moving as he walked。
Cherry and Zane came out from between the cars just ahead of us。 〃We thought you'd gotten lost；〃 she said； smiling。
〃You guys let everyone into the house？〃 I asked。
Her smile faded。 〃Yes； I hope that was okay。〃
I smiled。 〃It's okay； Cherry； really。 If I'd been thinking； I'd have arranged for someone to let them in。〃
She relaxed visibly and dropped to her knees in front of me。 I offered her my left hand。 I was keeping my right hand free in case I had to draw my gun。 Not likely； but you never know。 Cherry gripped my hand in both of hers and rubbed her face against it like a cat marking its scent。 The other formal greeting involved licking； but I'd finally convinced all of my cats that face rubbing was about all I was fy with。
Zane went to his knees beside Cherry but didn't try to grab my right hand。 He waited until she was done with my left。 I'd also broken them of being grabby with my gun hand。 He rubbed his face on my hand； and there was the faintest roughness alongside his jaw； as if he'd missed a spot when he shaved。
Cherry rubbed herself against my legs while Zane greeted me。 It was like being body…rubbed by a really big cat that just happened； at the moment； to be in human form。 The first few times it had happened； I'd freaked。 But it just didn't strike me as that strange anymore。 I wasn't sure if that was good or sort of sad。
When the greeting was over； Zane said； 〃We've got the extra key； so we took care of the pany。〃 They were both standing now； like good little people alright； good tall people； whatever。
〃Good； though I had no idea we'd have this big a crowd。〃
They fell into step； one on either side of us； and I could feel Cherry beside me。 I could feel her energy like a vibrating line against my body。 I'd never sensed her this strongly before。 Just another nail in the coffin on the Nimir…Ra question。 The evidence was getting thick enough that if I hadn't been so damn good at self…delusion； I'd have had to admit it by now。 But I'd had enough for one day。 I needed a pass on this one tonight。 So I ignored it； and if Cherry felt anything different； she didn't say。
It was Zane who put his face next to Nathaniel and sniffed him as we walked 〃You smell like fresh wounds。〃 He touched Nathaniel's back where it showed above the tank top。 I knew there were bite marks up around his shoulders； all the way up to his neck。 I should have known we couldn't 。hide it。 Hell； even with clothes covering it； they'd have smelled it。
〃What have you been doing？〃 Zane asked。 〃Or should I say who？〃
Nathaniel didn't even glance at me。 He was going to leave it all to me what was said and what wasn't。 Smart of him。 Or maybe he just didn't know what to say either。 I tried to think of a lie that would explain it； and nothing that didn't make Nathaniel