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〃I hoped that I would find a way to reestablish my dominance over him； but he is closed to me。〃
I swallowed hard and looked at him。 〃If he's mine； then why didn't I feel him when my shielding broke all to hell in New Mexico？〃
〃I have been blocking you from sensing him； and it has not been easy。〃
I closed my eyes and counted to ten； but it didn't help。 I was so angry my skin felt hot。 〃You had no right to do that。〃
〃Without the marks being married； I think Damian would have seduced you。 Because you would have been drawn to him as you are drawn to Nathaniel now； or perhaps even the Nimir…Raj。〃
〃I would not have fucked Damian without the ardeur helping me； and I didn't have that six months ago。〃
〃You may have your vampire back tomorrow night。 I will help you nurse him back to health。〃
〃I'm ing back tonight to get him。〃
〃Talk to Asher； ma petite。 Ask him what it will take to nurse a vampire back from six months in the coffin。 Damian is not a master； he has had no ability to feed or gain energy。 He will e out of the coffin a starved； crazed thing。 There will be very little left of him； at first。〃 He was so calm while he said it。
I didn't know what to say。 I wanted to hit him； but it wouldn't change anything。 I wasn't even sure it would make me feel better。 〃I want him out tonight； when I get back from the lupanar。〃
〃You will not be able to tend both your injured wereleopard and Damian tonight。 Ask Asher； and he will tell you how much work goes into such as this。 One more night will not make a difference to Damian； and tonight you are trying to prevent war between the leopards and the wolves。 More than that； you are trying to make a strong enough show of force to convince Richard's enemies that he is too well…allied to be killed。 You must concentrate on these things tonight； ma petite。〃
〃I don't believe you；〃 I said。
He shrugged。 〃Believe what you like； but it will take hours of care to make Damian sane again。 It will take days of care； and blood； and warmth； to bring him back to himself。〃
〃How could you know that and still do this to him？〃 My voice didn't even sound angry； just tired。
〃I learned the lessons of the cross…wrapped coffin personally； ma petite。 I have not done to Damian anything that has not been done to me。〃
〃You were in it for a few days until I killed the old Master of the City。〃
He shook his head。 〃When I returned to the Council with Asher and bargained with them； the price for them saving his life was my freedom。 I spent two years inside a coffin； unable to feed； unable to sit up； unable 。。。 〃 He was hugging his arms； holding himself。 〃I know that what I have done to Damian is a terrible thing； but my only alternative was to kill him。 Would you have preferred that？〃
〃No。〃
〃Yet； I see the accusation in your eyes。 I am a monster because of what I have done to him。 But you would feel me more a monster if I had killed him。 Or perhaps you would have preferred that I let him go into the city streets and slaughter people。〃
〃Damian would never do that。〃
〃He went mad； ma petite。 He became an alien。 Do you remember the couple that was slaughtered about six months ago？〃
〃I saw several slaughtered couples over the last year。 You'll need to be more specific。〃
He was angry now； too。 Great； we could be angry together。 〃They were in a car； at a stoplight。 The front of the car was dented as if they had hit a body； but no body was found。〃
〃Yeah； I remember that one。 They had their throats torn out。 The woman had tried to defend herself。 She had wounds on her arms where something had clawed at her。〃
〃Asher found Damian wandering a few blocks from the car。 He was covered in blood。 He fought Asher； and it took over half a dozen of us to bind him and bring him home。 Was I supposed to let him wander the streets after that？〃
〃You should have called me；〃 I said。
〃And what？ You would have executed him？ If insanity is a viable plea in your court system； then he cannot be held accountable。 But your court system does not give us the same privileges it gives humans。 We cannot plead insanity and live。〃
〃I saw that crime scene。 It didn't look like a vampire did it。 It looked more like a shapeshifter； but 。。。 but the marks were wrong。〃 I shook my head。 〃It was vicious； a vicious animal。〃
〃Oui； and so I locked him away and hoped that you would e home to us； or sense his plight。 At first I did nothing to block him from reaching you but you did not e。〃
〃I didn't know。〃
〃You knew that Damian was yours； and yet you did not ask about him。 You cast him away。〃
〃I didn't know；〃 I said； again； each word tight with anger。
〃And I had no choice； Anita。 I had to put him away。〃
〃Do you think the insanity is permanent？〃
He shrugged； arms still hugging his body。 〃If you were a vampire and he your vampire child； I would say no。 But you are not vampire； you are necromancer； and I simply do not know。〃
〃If he stays that crazy 。。。 〃
〃He will have to be destroyed；〃 Jean…Claude said； voice soft。
〃I didn't mean for this to happen。〃
〃Nor did I。〃
We stood there for a few moments while I thought about everything and Jean…Claude either thought about it； too； or just stood there。 〃If all you're saying is true； then you had no choice；〃 I said。
〃But you are still angry with me。 You will still punish me for it。〃
I glared up at him。 〃What do you want me to say？ That knowing you've shoved him in a box for six months takes the sparkle out of our relationship？ Yeah； it bothers me。〃
〃Under normal circumstances you would rescue Damian and avoid me for a time until your anger cooled。〃
I nodded。 〃Yeah； that's about right。〃
〃But you will need me； ma petite； in these first few nights。 You will need another vampire with the same hungers to teach you control。〃
〃Can't live with you； can't live without you； is that it？〃
〃I hope your anger cools before you need my help again； but I fear it will not。 Remember this； ma petite； that the ardeur is not bound by morals； or even by your preferences。 If you fight it long enough； hard enough； you will eventually give in； and it will be out of your control who it chooses。 So do this one thing for me； if you cannot forgive me right away； keep always by your side either Nathaniel or the Nimir…Raj。 Not for my sake； but for yours。 For I think； of the two of us； I would forgive you sooner for sleeping with strangers than you would。〃
We pretty much left the conversation there。 I found Asher and had him confirm the story。 Hell； I waited for Willie McCoy to climb out of his coffin and heard the story from him。 Damian had gone ape…shit and killed a couple that apparently hit him with their car。 The man had gotten out to check on whoever they hit。 They had hurt him and Damian struck out； killing the man。 But the woman 。。。 he'd climbed into the car after her。 We might have to kill him； because I hadn't understood what my magic meant to Damian。 I hadn't understood a lot of things。
I drove out in the soft summer dusk with Nathaniel riding beside me。 It had been a very long day。 I was going to go home and pick up Rafael and the wererats； and Micah and his pard。 He'd left a number at the shapeshifter hospital； and I'd called