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shadows; the shapes of which kept changing like ripples spreading
over the calm surface of a lake。
What perfect flesh! I thought。 When had Naoko e to possess such
a perfect body? What had happened to the body I held in my arms that
night last spring?
A sense of imperfection had been what Naoko's body had given me
that night as I tenderly undressed her while she cried。 Her breasts had
seemed hard; the nipples oddly jutting; the hips strangely rigid。 She
was a beautiful girl; of course; her body marvellous and alluring。 It
aroused me that night and swept me along with a gigantic force。 But
still; as I held her and caressed her and kissed her naked flesh; I felt a
strange and powerful awareness of the imbalance and awkwardness of
the human body。 Holding Naoko in my arms; I wanted to explain to
her; 〃I am having sex with you now。 I am inside you。 But really this is
nothing。 It doesn't matter。 It is nothing but the joining of two bodies。
All we are doing is telling each other things that can only be told by
the rubbing together of two imperfect lumps of flesh。 By doing this;
we are sharing our imperfection。〃 But of course I could never have
said such a thing with any hope of being understood。 I just went on
holding her tightly。 And as I did so; I was able to feel inside her body
some kind of stony foreign matter; something extra that I could never
draw close to。 And that sensation both filled my heart for Naoko and
gave my erection a terrifying intensity。
The body that Naoko revealed before me now; though; was nothing
like the one I had held that night。 This flesh had been through many
changes to be reborn in utter perfection beneath the light of the moon。
All signs of girlish plumpness had been stripped away since Kizuki's
death to be replaced by the flesh of a mature woman。 So perfect was
Naoko's physical beauty now that it aroused nothing sexual in me。 I
could only stare; astounded; at the lovely curve from waist to hips; the
rounded richness of the breasts; the gentle movement with each breath
of the slim belly and the soft; black pubic shadow beneath。
She exposed her nakedness to me this way for perhaps five minutes
until; at last; she wrapped herself in her gown once more and buttoned
it from top to bottom。 As soon as the final button was in place; she
rose and glided towards the bedroom; silently opened the door; and
disappeared。
I stayed rooted to the spot for a very long time until it occurred to me
to leave the bed。 I retrieved my watch from where it had fallen on the
floor and turned it towards the light of the moon。 It was 3。40。 I went to
the kitchen and drank a few glasses of water before stretching out in
bed again; but sleep never came until the morning sunlight crept into
every corner of the room; dissolving all traces of the moon's pale
glow。
I was somewhere on the edge of sleep when Reiko came and slapped
me on the cheek; shouting; 〃Morning! Morning!〃
While Reiko straightened out my sofa bed; Naoko went to the kitchen
and started making breakfast。 She smiled at me and said 〃Good
morning〃。
〃Good morning;〃 I replied。 I stood by and watched her as she put on
water to boil and sliced some bread; humming all the while; but I
could sense nothing in her manner to suggest that she had revealed her
naked body to me the night before。
〃Your eyes are red;〃 she said to me as she poured the coffee。 〃Are you
OK?〃
〃I woke up in the middle of the night and couldn't get back to sleep。〃
〃I bet we were snoring;〃 said Reiko。
〃Not at all;〃 I said。
〃That's good;〃 said Naoko。
〃He's just being polite;〃 said Reiko; yawning。
At first I thought that Naoko was embarrassed or acting innocent for
Reiko; but her behaviour remained unchanged when Reiko
momentarily left the room; and her eyes had their usual transparent
look。
〃How'd you sleep?〃 I asked Naoko。
〃Like a log;〃 she answered with ease。 She wore a simple hairpin
without any kind of decoration。
I didn't know what to make of this; and I continued to feel that way all
through breakfast。 Buttering my bread or peeling my egg; I kept
glancing across the table at Naoko; in search of a sign。
〃Why do you keep looking at me like that?〃 she asked with a smile。
〃I think he's in love with somebody;〃 said Reiko。
〃Are you in love with somebody?〃 Naoko asked me。
〃Could be;〃 I said; returning her smile。 When the two women started
joking around at my expense; I gave up trying to think about what had
happened in the night and concentrated on my bread and coffee。
After breakfast; Reiko and Naoko said they would be going to feed the
birds in the aviary。 I volunteered to go along。 They changed into jeans
and work shirts and white rubber boots。 Set in a little park behind the
tennis courts; the aviary had everything in it from chickens and
pigeons to peacocks and parrots and was surrounded by flowerbeds;
shrubberies and benches。 Two men in their forties; also apparently
sanatorium patients; were raking up leaves that had fallen in the
pathways。 The women walked over to say good morning to the pair;
and Reiko made them laugh with another of her jokes。 Cosmos were
blooming in the flowerbeds; and the shrubberies were extremely well
manicured。 Spotting Reiko; the birds started chattering and flying
about inside the cage。
The women entered the shed by the cage and came out with a bag of
feed and a garden hose。 Naoko screwed the hose to a tap and turned
on the water。 Taking care to prevent any birds from flying out; the two
of them slipped into the cage; Naoko hosing down the dirt and Reiko
scrubbing the floor of the cage with a deck brush。 The spray sparkled
in the glare of the morning sun。 The peacocks flapped around the cage
to avoid getting splashed。 A turkey raised its head and glowered at me
like a crotchety old man; while a parrot on the perch above screeched
its displeasure and beat its wings。 Reiko meowed at the parrot; which
slunk over to the far corner but soon was calling: 〃Thank you!〃
〃Crazy!〃 〃Shithead!〃
〃I wonder who taught him that kind of language?〃 said Naoko with a
sigh。
〃Not me;〃 said Reiko。 〃I would never do such a thing。〃 She started
meowing again; and the parrot shut up。
Laughing; Reiko explained; 〃This guy once had a run…in with a cat。
Now he's scared to death of them。〃
When they had finished cleaning; the two set down their tools and
went around filling each of the feeders。 Splashing its way through
puddles on the floor; the turkey darted to its feed box and plunged its
head in; too obsessed with eating to be bothered by Naoko's smacks
on its tail。
〃Do you do this every morning?〃 I asked Naoko。
〃Every morning!〃 she said。 〃They usually give this job to new women。
It's so easy。 Like to see the rabbits?〃
〃Sure;〃 I said。 The rabbit hutch was behind the aviary。 Some ten
rabbits lay inside; asleep in the straw。 Naoko swept up their droppings;
put feed in their box; and picked up one of the babies; rubbing it
against her cheek。
〃Isn't it precious?〃 she gushed。 She let me hold it。 The warm; little ball
of fur cringed in my arms; twitching its nose。
〃Don't worry; he won'