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Of course they did； for I felt their eyes directed like burning… glasses against my scorched skin。
“You see she is yet young； you observe she possesses the ordinary form of childhood； God has graciously given her the shape that He has given to all of us； no signal deformity points her out as a marked character。 Who would think that the Evil One had already found a servant and agent in her？ Yet such； I grieve to say； is the case。”
A pause—in which I began to steady the palsy of my nerves； and to feel that the Rubicon was passed； and that the trial； no longer to be shirked； must be firmly sustained。
“My dear children；” pursued the black marble clergyman； with pathos； “this is a sad； a melancholy occasion； for it bees my duty to warn you； that this girl； who might be one of God’s own lambs； is a little castaway： not a member of the true flock； but evidently an interloper and an alien。 You must be on your guard against her； you must shun her example； if necessary； avoid her pany； exclude her from your sports； and shut her out from your converse。 Teachers； you must watch her： keep your eyes on her movements； weigh well her words； scrutinise her actions； punish her body to save her soul： if； indeed； such salvation be possible； for （my tongue falters while I tell it） this girl； this child； the native of a Christian land； worse than many a little heathen who says its prayers to Brahma and kneels before Juggernaut—this girl is—a liar！”
Now came a pause of ten minutes； during which I； by this time in perfect possession of my wits； observed all the female Brocklehursts produce their pocket…handkerchiefs and apply them to their optics； while the elderly lady swayed herself to and fro； and the two younger ones whispered； “How shocking！” Mr。 Brocklehurst resumed。
“This I learned from her benefactress； from the pious and charitable lady who adopted her in her orphan state； reared her as her own daughter； and whose kindness； whose generosity the unhappy girl repaid by an ingratitude so bad； so dreadful； that at last her excellent patroness was obliged to separate her from her own young ones； fearful lest her vicious example should contaminate their purity： she has sent her here to be healed； even as the Jews of old sent their diseased to the troubled pool of Bethesda； and； teachers； superintendent； I beg of you not to allow the waters to stagnate round her。”
With this sublime conclusion； Mr。 Brocklehurst adjusted the top button of his surtout； muttered something to his family； who rose； bowed to Miss Temple； and then all the great people sailed in state from the room。 Turning at the door； my judge said—
“Let her stand half…an…hour longer on that stool； and let no one speak to her during the remainder of the day。”
There was I； then； mounted aloft； I； who had said I could not bear the shame of standing on my natural feet in the middle of the room； was now exposed to general view on a pedestal of infamy。 What my sensations were no language can describe； but just as they all rose； stifling my breath and constricting my throat； a girl came up and passed me： in passing； she lifted her eyes。 What a strange light inspired them！ What an extraordinary sensation that ray sent through me！ How the new feeling bore me up！ It was as if a martyr； a hero； had passed a slave or victim； and imparted strength in the transit。 I mastered the rising hysteria； lifted up my head； and took a firm stand on the stool。 Helen Burns asked some slight question about her work of Miss Smith； was chidden for the triviality of the inquiry； returned to her place； and smiled at me as she again went by。 What a smile！ I remember it now； and I know that it was the effluence of fine intellect； of true courage； it lit up her marked lineaments； her thin face； her sunken grey eye； like a reflection from the aspect of an angel。 Yet at that moment Helen Burns wore on her arm “the untidy badge；” scarcely an hour ago I had heard her condemned by Miss Scatcherd to a dinner of bread and water on the morrow because she had blotted an exercise in copying it out。 Such is the imperfect nature of man！ such spots are there on the disc of the clearest pla； and eyes like Miss Scatcherd’s can only see those minute defects； and are blind to the full brightness of the orb。
Chapter 8
Ere the half…hour ended； five o’clock struck； school was dismissed； and all were gone into the refectory to tea。 I now ventured to descend： it was deep dusk； I retired into a corner and sat down on the floor。 The spell by which I had been so far supported began to dissolve； reaction took place； and soon； so overwhelming was the grief that seized me； I sank prostrate with my face to the ground。 Now I wept： Helen Burns was not here； nothing sustained me； left to myself I abandoned myself； and my tears watered the boards。 I had meant to be so good； and to do so much at Lowood： to make so many friends； to earn respect and win affection。 Already I had made visible progress： that very morning I had reached the head of my class； Miss Miller had praised me warmly； Miss Temple had smiled approbation； she had promised to teach me drawing； and to let me learn French； if I continued to make similar improvement two months longer： and then I was well received by my fellow…pupils； treated as an equal by those of my own age； and not molested by any； now； here I lay again crushed and trodden on； and could I ever rise more？
“Never；” I thought； and ardently I wished to die。 While sobbing out this wish in broken accents； some one approached： I started up— again Helen Burns was near me； the fading fires just showed her ing up the long； vacant room； she brought my coffee and bread。
“e； eat something；” she said； but I put both away from me； feeling as if a drop or a crumb would have choked me in my present condition。 Helen regarded me； probably with surprise： I could not now abate my agitation； though I tried hard； I continued to weep aloud。 She sat down on the ground near me； embraced her knees with her arms； and rested her head upon them； in that attitude she remained silent as an Indian。 I was the first who spoke—
“Helen； why do you stay with a girl whom everybody believes to be a liar？”
“Everybody； Jane？ Why； there are only eighty people who have heard you called so； and the world contains hundreds of millions。”
“But what have I to do with millions？ The eighty； I know； despise me。”
“Jane； you are mistaken： probably not one in the school either despises or dislikes you： many； I am sure； pity you much。”
“How can they pity me after what Mr。 Brocklehurst has said？”
“Mr。 Brocklehurst is not a god： nor is he even a great and admired man： he is little liked here； he never took steps to make himself liked。 Had he treated you as an especial favourite； you would have found enemies； declared or covert； all around you； as it is； the greater number would offer you sympathy if they dared。 Teachers and pupils may look coldly on you for a day or two； but friendly feelings are concealed in their hearts； and if you persevere in doing well； these feelings will ere long appear so much the more evidently for their temporary suppression。 Besides； Jane”—she paused。
“Well； Helen？” said I； putting my hand into h