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〃I have no doubt that it would。〃
〃Will you explain what you mean？〃
〃Let me have your explanation first。 I was not prepared to find Susan in your room。 I was surprised to see traces of tears in her face。 Something has happened in my absence。 Am I concerned in it？〃
〃You are。〃
I said it quietlyin full possession of myself。 The trial of fortitude through which I had already passed seemed to have blunted my customary sense of feeling。 I approached the disclosure which I was now bound to make with steady resolution； resigned to the worst that could happen when the truth was known。
〃Do you remember the time；〃 I resumed； 〃when I was so eager to serve you that I proposed to make Susan your wife by making her rich？〃
〃Yes。〃
〃Do you remember asking me if I was thinking of the play we saw together at Rome？ Is the story as present to your mind now； as it was then？〃
〃Quite as present。〃
〃You asked if I was performing the part of the Marquisand if you were the Count。 Rothsay！ the devotion of that ideal character to his friend has been my devotion； his conviction that his death would justify what he had done for his friend's sake； has been _my_ conviction； and as it ended with him； so it has ended with mehis terrible position is _my_ terrible position toward you； at this moment。〃
〃Are you mad？〃 Rothsay asked； sternly。
I passed over that first outbreak of his anger in silence。
〃Do you mean to tell me you have married Susan？〃 he went on。
〃Bear this in mind；〃 I said。 〃When I married her； I was doomed to death。 Nay； more。 In your interestsas God is my witnessI welcomed death。〃
He stepped up to me； in silence； and raised his hand with a threatening gesture。
That action at once deprived me of my self…possession。 I spoke with the ungovernable rashness of a boy。
〃Carry out your intention；〃 I said。 〃Insult me。〃
His hand dropped。
〃Insult me；〃 I repeated； 〃it is one way out of the unendurable situation in which we are placed。 You may trust me to challenge you。 Duels are still fought on the Continent； I will follow you abroad； I will choose pistols； I will take care that we fight on the fatal foreign system； and I will purposely miss you。 Make her what I intended her to bemy rich widow。〃
He looked at me attentively。
〃Is _that_ your refuge？〃 he asked； scornfully。 〃No！ I won't help you to commit suicide。〃
God forgive me！ I was possessed by a spirit of reckless despair； I did my best to provoke him。
〃Reconsider your decision；〃 I said； 〃and rememberyou tried to commit suicide yourself。〃
He turned quickly to the door； as if he distrusted his own powers of self…control。
〃I wish to speak to Susan；〃 he said； keeping his back turned on me。
〃You will find her in the library。〃
He left me。
I went to the window。 I opened it and let the cold wintry air blow over my burning head。 I don't know how long I sat at the window。 There came a time when I saw Rothsay on the house steps。 He walked rapidly toward the park gate。 His head was down； he never once looked back at the room in which he had left me。
As he passed out of my sight； I felt a hand laid gently on my shoulder。 Susan had returned to me。
〃He will not come back；〃 she said。 〃Try still to remember him as your old friend。 He asks you to forgive and forget。〃
She had made the peace between us。 I was deeply touched； my eyes filled with tears as I looked at her。 She kissed me on the forehead and went out。 I afterward asked what had passed between them when Rothsay spoke with her in the library。 She never has told me what they said to each other； and she never will。 She is right。
Later in the day I was told that Mrs。 Rymer had called； and wished to 〃pay her respects。〃
I refused to see her。 Whatever claim she might have otherwise had on my consideration had been forfeited by the infamy of her conduct； when she intercepted my letter to Susan。 Her sense of injury on receiving my message was expressed in writing； and was sent to me the same evening。 The last sentence in her letter was characteristic of the woman。
〃However your pride may despise me；〃 she wrote； 〃I am indebted to you for the rise in life that I have always desired。 You may refuse to see mebut you can't prevent my being the mother…in…law of a gentleman。〃
Soon afterward； I received a visit which I had hardly ventured to expect。 Busy as he was in London； my doctor came to see me。 He was not in his usual good spirits。
〃I hope you don't bring me any bad news？〃 I said。
〃You shall judge for yourself；〃 he replied。 〃I come from Mr。 Rothsay； to say for him what he is not able to say for himself。〃
〃Where is he？〃
〃He has left England。〃
〃For any purpose that you know of？〃
〃Yes。 He has sailed to join the expedition of rescueI ought rather to call it the forlorn hopewhich is to search for the lost explorers in Central Australia。〃
In other words； he had gone to seek death in the fatal footsteps of Burke and Wills。 I could not trust myself to speak。
The doctor saw that there was a reason for my silence； and that he would do well not to notice it。 He changed the subjectj。
〃May I ask；〃 he said； 〃if you have heard from the servants left in charge at your house in London？〃
〃Has anything happened？〃
〃Something has happened which they are evidently afraid to tell you； knowing the high opinion which you have of Mrs。 Mozeen。 She has suddenly quitted your service； and has gone； nobody knows where。 I have taken charge of a letter which she left for you。〃
He handed me the letter。 As soon as I had recovered myself； I looked at it。
There was this inscription on the address： 〃For my good master； to wait until he returns home。〃 The few lines in the letter itself ran thus：
〃Distressing circumstances oblige me to leave you； sir； and do not permit me to enter into particulars。 In asking your pardon； I offer my sincere thanks for your kindness； and my fervent prayers for your welfare。〃
That was all。 The date had a special interest for me。 Mrs。 Mozeen had written on the day when she must have received my letterthe letter which has already appeared in these pages。
〃Is there really nothing known of the poor woman's motives？〃 I asked。
〃There are two explanations suggested；〃 the doctor informed me。 〃One of them； which is offered by your female servants； seems to me absurd。 They declare that Mrs。 Mozeen； at her mature age； was in love with the young man who is your footman！ It is even asserted that she tried to recommend herself to him； by speaking of the money which she expected to bring to the man who would make her his wife。 The footman's reply； informing her that he was already engaged to be married； is alleged to be the cause which has driven her from your house。〃
I begged that the doctor would not trouble himself to repeat more of what my women servants had said。
〃If the other explanation；〃 I added； 〃is equally unworthy of notice〃
〃The other explanation；〃 the doctor interposed； 〃comes from Mr。 Rothsay； and is of a very serious kind。〃
Rothsay's opinion demanded my respect。
〃What view does he take？〃 I inquired。
〃A view that startles me；〃 the doctor said。 〃You remember my telling you of the interest he took in your symptoms；