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these circumstances in mind； it struck me that I might be acting wisely （in Michael's interest） if I persuaded the General to speak further of what had happened； at the time when he met the woman whom an evil destiny had bestowed on him for a wife。 Nothing but the consideration of serving the man I loved would have reconciled me to making my own secret use of the recollections which my uncle might innocently confide to me。 As it was； I thought the means would； in this case； be for once justified by the end。 Before we part； I have little doubt that you will think so too。
I found it an easier task than I had anticipated to turn the talk back again to the days when the General had seen Lady Claudia for the first time。 He was proud of the circumstances under which he had won his wife。 Ah； how my heart ached for him as I saw his eyes sparkle； and the color mount in his fine rugged face！
This is the substance of what I heard from him。 I tell it briefly； because it is still painful to me to tell it at all。
My uncle had met Lady Claudia at her father's country house。 She had then reappeared in society； after a period of seclusion； passed partly in England； partly on the Continent。 Before the date of her retirement； she had been engaged to marry a French nobleman； equally illustrious by his birth and by his diplomatic services in the East。 Within a few weeks of the wedding…day； he was drowned by the wreck of his yacht。 This was the calamity to which my uncle had referred。
Lady Claudia's mind was so seriously affected by the dreadful event； that the doctors refused to answer for the consequences； unless she was at once placed in the strictest retirement。 Her mother； and a French maid devotedly attached to her； were the only persons whom it was considered safe for the young lady to see； until time and care had in some degree composed her。 Her return to her friends and admirers； after the necessary interval of seclusion； was naturally a subject of sincere rejoicing among the guests assembled in her father's house。 My uncle's interest in Lady Claudia soon developed into love。 They were equals in rank； and well suited to each other in age。 The parents raised no obstacles； but they did not conceal from their guest that the disaster which had befallen their daughter was but too likely to disincline her to receive his addresses； or any man's addresses； favorably。 To their surprise； they proved to be wrong。 The young lady was touched by the simplicity and the delicacy with which her lover urged his suit。 She had lived among worldly people。 This was a man whose devotion she could believe to be sincere。 They were married。
Had no unusual circumstances occurred？ Had nothing happened which the General had forgotten？ Nothing。
X。
IT is surely needless that I should stop here； to draw the plain inferences from the events just related。
Any person who remembers that the shawl in which the infant was wrapped came from those Eastern regions which were associated with the French nobleman's diplomatic servicesalso； that the faults of composition in the letter found on the child were exactly the faults likely to have been committed by the French maidany person who follows these traces can find his way to the truth as I found mine。
Returning for a moment to the hopes which I had formed of being of some service to Michael； I have only to say that they were at once destroyed； when I heard of the death by drowning of the man to whom the evidence pointed as his father。 The prospect looked equally barren when I thought of the miserable mother。 That she should openly acknowledge her son in her position was perhaps not to be expected of any woman。 Had she courage enough； or； in plainer words； heart enough to acknowledge him privately？
I called to mind again some of the apparent caprices and contradictions in Lady Claudia's conduct； on the memorable day when Michael had presented himself to fill the vacant place。 Look back with me to the record of what she said and did on that occasion； by the light of your present knowledge； and you will see that his likeness to his father must have struck her when he entered the room； and that his statement of his age must have correctly described the age of her son。 Recall the actions that followed； after she had been exhausted by her first successful efforts at self…controlthe withdrawal to the window to conceal her face； the clutch at the curtain when she felt herself sinking； the harshness of manner under which she concealed her emotions when she ventured to speak to him； the reiterated inconsistencies and vacillations of conduct that followed； all alike due to the protest of Nature； desperately resisted to the lastand say if I did her injustice when I believed her to be incapable of running the smallest risk of discovery at the prompting of maternal love。
There remained； then； only Michael to think of。 I remember how he had spoken of the unknown parents whom he neither expected nor cared to discover。 Still； I could not reconcile it to my conscience to accept a chance outbreak of temper as my sufficient ju stification for keeping him in ignorance of a discovery which so nearly concerned him。 It seemed at least to be my duty to make myself acquainted with the true state of his feelings； before I decided to bear the burden of silence with me to my grave。
What I felt it my duty to do in this serious matter； I determined to do at once。 Besides； let me honestly own that I felt lonely and desolate； oppressed by the critical situation in which I was placed； and eager for the relief that it would be to me only to hear the sound of Michael's voice。 I sent my maid to say that I wished to speak to him immediately。 The crisis was already hanging over my head。 That one act brought it down。
XI。
He came in； and stood modestly waiting at the door。
After making him take a chair； I began by saying that I had received his message； and that； acting on my uncle's advice； I must abstain from interfering in the question of his leaving； or not leaving； his place。 Having in this way established a reason for sending for him； I alluded next to the loss that he had sustained； and asked if he had any prospect of finding out the person who had entered his room in his absence。 On his reply in the negative； I spoke of the serious results to him of the act of destruction that had been committed。 〃Your last chance of discovering your parents；〃 I said； 〃has been cruelly destroyed。〃
He smiled sadly。 〃You know already； miss； that I never expected to discover them。〃
I ventured a little nearer to the object I had in view。
〃Do you never think of your mother？〃 I asked。 〃At your age； she might be still living。 Can you give up all hope of finding her； without feeling your heart ache？〃
〃If I have done her wrong； in believing that she deserted me；〃 he answered； 〃the heart…ache is but a poor way of expressing the remorse that I should feel。〃
I ventured nearer still。
Even if you were right；〃 I began〃even it she did desert you〃
He interrupted me sternly。 〃I would not cross the street to see her；〃 he said。 〃A woman who deserts her child is a monster。 Forgive me for speaking so； miss！ When I see good mothers and th