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In my position； there was but one possible answer to this。 Governesses must not make appointments with strange gentlemeneven when the children are present in the capacity of witnesses。 I said； No。 Am I claiming too much for my readiness to forgive injuries； when I add that I should have preferred saying Yes？
We had our early dinner； and then got ready to go out walking as usual。 These pages contain a true confession。 Let me own that I hoped Mr。 Sax would understand my refusal； and ask Mrs。 Fosdyke's leave to accompany us。 Lingering a little as we went downstairs； I heard him in the hallactually speaking to Mrs。 Fosdyke！ What was he saying？ That darling boy； Freddy； got into a difficulty with one of his boot…laces exactly at the right moment。 I could help him； and listenand be sadly disappointed by the result。 Mr。 Sax was offended with me。
〃You needn't introduce me to the new governess；〃 I heard him say。 〃We have met on a former occasion； and I produced a disagreeable impression on her。 I beg you will not speak of me to Miss Morris。〃
Before Mrs。 Fosdyke could say a word in reply； Master Freddy changed suddenly from a darling boy to a detestable imp。 〃I say； Mr。 Sax！〃 he called out； 〃Miss Morris doesn't mind you a bitshe only laughs at you。〃
The answer to this was the sudden closing of a door。 Mr。 Sax had taken refuge from me in one of the ground…floor rooms。 I was so mortified； I could almost have cried。
Getting down into the hall； we found Mrs。 Fosdyke with her garden hat on； and one of the two ladies who were staying in the house （the unmarried one） whispering to her at the door of the morning…room。 The ladyMiss Melburylooked at me with a certain appearance of curiosity which I was quite at a loss to understand； and suddenly turned away toward the further end of the hall。
〃I will walk with you and the children；〃 Mrs。 Fosdyke said to me。 〃Freddy； you can ride your tricycle if you like。〃 She turned to the girls。 〃My dears； it's cool under the trees。 You may take your skipping…ropes。〃
She had evidently something special to say to me； and she had adopted the necessary measures for keeping the children in front of us； well out of hearing。 Freddy led the way on his horse on three wheels； the girls followed； skipping merrily。 Mrs。 Fosdyke opened the business by the most embarrassing remark that she could possibly have made under the circumstances。
〃I find that you are acquainted with Mr。 Sax；〃 she began； 〃and I am surprised to hear that you dislike him。〃
She smiled pleasantly； as if my supposed dislike of Mr。 Sax rather amused her。 What 〃the ruling passion〃 may be among men； I cannot presume to consider。 My own sex； however； I may claim to understand。 The ruling passion among women is Conceit。 My ridiculous notion of my own consequence was wounded in some way。 I assumed a position of the loftiest indifference。
〃Really； ma'am；〃 I said； 〃I can't undertake to answer for any impression that Mr。 Sax may have formed。 We met by the merest accident。 I know nothing about him。〃
Mrs。 Fosdyke eyed me slyly； and appeared to be more amused than ever。
〃He is a very odd man；〃 she admitted； 〃but I can tell you there is a fine nature under that strange surface of his。 However；〃 she went on； 〃I am forgetting that he forbids me to talk about him in your presence。 When the opportunity offers； I shall take my own way of teaching you two to understand each other： you will both be grateful to me when I have succeeded。 In the meantime； there is a third person who will be sadly disappointed to hear that you know nothing about Mr。 Sax。〃
〃May I ask； ma'am； who the person is？〃
〃Can you keep a secret； Miss Morris？ Of course you can！ The person is Miss Melbury。〃
（Miss Melbury was a dark woman。 It cannot be because I am a fair woman myselfI hope I am above such narrow prejudices as thatbut it is certainly true that I don't admire dark women。）
〃She heard Mr。 Sax telling me that you particularly disliked him； 〃 Mrs。 Fosdyke proceeded。 〃And just as you appeared in the hall； she was asking me to find out what your reason was。 My own opinion of Mr。 Sax； I ought to tell you； doesn't satisfy her； I am his old friend； and I present him of course from my own favorable point of view。 Miss Melbury is anxious to be made acquainted with his faultsand she expected you to be a valuable witness against him。〃
Thus far we had been walking on。 We now stopped； as if by common consent； and looked at one another。
In my previous experience of Mrs。 Fosdyke； I had only seen the more constrained and formal side of her character。 Without being aware of my own success； I had won the mother's heart in winning the goodwill of her children。 Constraint now seized its first opportunity of melting away； the latent sense of humor in the great lady showed itself； while I was inwardly wondering what the nature of Miss Melbury's extraordinary interest in Mr。 Sax might be。 Easily penetrating my thoughts； she satisfied my curiosity without committing herself to a reply in words。 Her large gray eyes sparkled as they rested on my face； and she hummed the tune of the old French song； _〃C'est l'amour； l'amour； l'amour！〃_ There is no disguising itsomething in this disclosure made me excessively angry。 Was I angry with Miss Melbury？ or with Mr。 Sax？ or with myself？ I think it must have been with myself。
Finding that I had nothing to say on my side； Mrs。 Fosdyke looked at her watch； and remembered her domestic duties。 To my relief； our interview came to an end。
〃I have a dinner…party to…day；〃 she said； 〃and I have not seen the housekeeper yet。 Make yourself beautiful； Miss Morris； and join us in the drawing…room after dinner。〃
V。
I WORE my best dress； and； in all my life before； I never took such pains with my hair。 Nobody will be foolish enough； I hope； to suppose that I did this on Mr。 Sax's account。 How could I possibly care about a man who was little better than a stranger to me？ No！ the person I dressed at was Miss Melbury。
She gave me a look； as I modestly placed myself in a corner； which amply rewarded me for the time spent on my toilet。 The gentlemen came in。 I looked at Mr。 Sax （mere curiosity） under shelter of my fan。 His appearance was greatly improved by evening dress。 He discovered me in my corner； and seemed doubtful whether to approach me or not。 I was reminded of our first odd meeting； and I could not help smiling as I called it to mind。 Did he presume to think that I was encouraging him？ Before I could decide that question； he took the vacant place on the sofa。 In any other manafter what had passed in the morningthis would have been an audacious proceeding。 _He_ looked so painfully embarrassed； that i t became a species of Christian duty to pity him。
〃Won't you shake hands？〃 he said； just as he had said it at Sandwich。
I peeped round the corner of my fan at Miss Melbury。 She was looking at us。 I shook hands with Mr。 Sax。
〃What sort of sensation is it；〃 he asked； 〃when you shake hands with a man whom you hate？〃
〃I really can't tell you；〃 I answered innocently； 〃I have never done such a thing。〃
〃You would not lunch with me at Sandwich；〃 he protested； 〃and； after the humblest apology on my part； you won't forgive me