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of a governess。 The head of the household was partner in a business （the exact nature of which it is needless to mention） having 〃branches〃 out of London。 He had become superintendent of a new 〃branch〃tried as a commercial experiment； under special circumstances； at Sandwich。 The idea of returning to my native place pleased medull as the place was to others。 I accepted the situation。
When the steward's usual half…yearly letter arrived soon afterward； inquiring what plans I had formed on leaving school； and what he could do to help them； acting on behalf of Sir Gervase； a delicious tingling filled me from head to foot when I thought of my own independence。 It was not ingratitude toward my benefactor； it was only my little private triumph over Lady Damian。 Oh； my sisters of the sex； can you not understand and forgive me？
So to Sandwich I returned； and there； for three years； I remained with the kindest people who ever breathed the breath of life。 Under their roof I was still living when I met with my lost gentleman in the street。
Ah； me！ the end of that quiet； pleasant life was near。 When I lightly spoke to the odd stranger of the expiring trade of the town； I never expected that my employer's trade was expiring too。 The speculation had turned out to be a losing one； and all his savings had been embarked in it。 He could no longer remain at Sandwich； or afford to keep a governess。 His wife broke the sad news to me。 I was so fond of the children； I proposed to her to give up my salary。 Her husband refused even to consider the proposal。 It was the old story of poor humanity over again。 We cried； we kissed； we parted。
What was I to do next？Write to Sir Gervase？
I had already written； soon after my return to Sandwich； breaking through the regulations by directly addressing Sir Gervase。 I expressed my grateful sense of his generosity to a poor girl who had no family claim on him； and I promised to make the one return in my power by trying to be worthy of the interest he had taken in me。 The letter was written without any alloy of mental reserve。 My new life as a governess was such a happy one that I had forgotten my paltry bitterness of feeling against Lady Damian。
It was a relief to think of this change for the better； when the secretary at Garrum Park informed me that he had forwarded my letter to Sir Gervase； then at Madeira with his sick wife。 She was slowly and steadily wasting away in a decline。 Before another year had passed； Sir Gervase was left a widower for the second time； with no child to console him under his loss。 No answer came to my grateful letter。 I should have been unreasonable indeed if I had expected the bereaved husband to remember me in his grief and loneliness。 Could I write to him again； in my own trumpery little interests； under these circumstances？ I thought （and still think） that the commonest feeling of delicacy forbade it。 The only other alternative was to appeal to the ever…ready friends of the obscure and helpless public。 I advertised in the newspapers。
The tone of one of the answers which I received impressed me so favorably； that I forwarded my references。 The next post brought my written engagement； and the offer of a salary which doubled my income。
The story of the past is told； and now we may travel on again； with no more stoppages by the way。
III。
THE residence of my present employer was in the north of England。 Having to pass through London； I arranged to stay in town for a few days to make some necessary additions to my wardrobe。 An old servant of the rector； who kept a lodging…house in the suburbs； received me kindly； and guided my choice in the serious matter of a dressmaker。 On the second morning after my arrival an event happened。 The post brought me a letter forwarded from the rectory。 Imagine my astonishment when my correspondent proved to be Sir Gervase Damian himself！
The letter was dated from his house in London。 It briefly invited me to call and see him； for a reason which I should hear from his own lips。 He naturally supposed that I was still at Sandwich； and requested me； in a postscript； to consider my journey as made at his expense。
I went to the house the same day。 While I was giving my name； a gentleman came out into the hall。 He spoke to me without ceremony。
〃Sir Gervase；〃 he said； 〃believes he is going to die。 Don't encourage him in that idea。 He may live for another year or more； if his friends will only persuade him to be hopeful about himself。〃
With that； the gentleman left me； the servant said i t was the doctor。
The change in my benefactor； since I had seen him last； startled and distressed me。 He lay back in a large arm…chair； wearing a grim black dressing…gown； and looking pitiably thin and pinched and worn。 I do not think I should have known him again； if we had met by accident。 He signed to me to be seated on a little chair by his side。
〃I wanted to see you；〃 he said quietly； 〃before I die。 You must have thought me neglectful and unkind； with good reason。 My child； you have not been forgotten。 If years have passed without a meeting between us； it has not been altogether my fault〃
He stopped。 A pained expression passed over his poor worn face； he was evidently thinking of the young wife whom he had lost。 I repeatedfervently and sincerely repeatedwhat I had already said to him in writing。 〃I owe everything； sir； to your fatherly kindness。〃 Saying this； I ventured a little further。 I took his wan white hand； hanging over the arm of the chair； and respectfully put it to my lips。
He gently drew his hand away from me； and sighed as he did it。 Perhaps _she_ had sometimes kissed his hand。
〃Now tell me about yourself；〃 he said。
I told him of my new situation； and how I had got it。 He listened with evident interest。
〃I was not self…deceived；〃 he said； 〃when I first took a fancy to you in the shop。 I admire your independent feeling； it's the right kind of courage in a girl like you。 But you must let me do something more for yousome little service to remember me by when the end has come。 What shall it be？〃
〃Try to get better； sir； and let me write to you now and then；〃 I answered。 〃Indeed； indeed； I want nothing more。〃
〃You will accept a little present； at least？〃 With those words he took from the breast…pocket of his dressing…gown an enameled cross attached to a gold chain。 〃Think of me sometimes；〃 he said； as he put the chain round my neck。 He drew me to him gently； and kissed my forehead。 It was too much for me。 〃Don't cry； my dear；〃 he said； 〃don't remind me of another sad young face〃
Once more he stopped； once more he was thinking of the lost wife。 I pulled down my veil； and ran out of the room。
IV。
THE next day I was on my way to the north。 My narrative brightens againbut let us not forget Sir Gervase Damian。
I ask permission to introduce some persons of distinction：Mrs。 Fosdyke； of Carsham Hall； widow of General Fosdyke； also Master Frederick； Miss Ellen； and Miss Eva； the pupils of the new governess； also two ladies and three gentlemen； guests staying in the house。
Discreet and dignified； handsome and well…bredsuch was my impression of Mrs。 Fosdyke； while she harangued me on the subject of her