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〃Then he turned to me： 'Miss Dodd； do you remember that night you and I met at Richard Hardie's door？ Well； scarce five minutes before that； your father was standing on our lawn and called to the man； who was my father； in a loud voiceit rings in my ears now〃Hardie； Villain！ give me back my money； my fourteen thousand pounds！ give me my children's money； or may your children die before your eyes。〃 Ah； you wince to hear me whisper these dreadful words： what if you had been where I was and heard them spoken； and in a terrible voice； the voice of Despair； the voice of Truth！ Soon a window opened cautiously； and a voice whispered； 〃Hush！ I'll bring it you down。〃 And _this_ voice was the voice of fear； of dishonesty； and of Richard Hardie。'
〃He turned deadly white when he said this； and I cried to mamma； 'Oh； stop him！ stop him！' And she said； 'Alfred； think what you are saying。 Why do you tell us what we had better never know？' He answered directly。
〃'Because it is the truth： and because I loathe injustice。 Some time afterwards I taxed Mr。 Richard Hardie with this fourteen thousand pounds： and his face betrayed him。 I taxed his clerk； Skinner： and Skinner's face betrayed him： and he fled the town that very night。
〃My mother looked much distressed and said； 'To what end do you raise this pitiable subject？ Your father is a bankrupt； and we but suffer with the rest。'
〃'No； no；' said he； 'I have looked through the bankrupt's books； and there is no mention of the sum。 And then who brought Captain Dodd here？ Skinner？ and Skinner is his detected confederate。 It is clear to me poor Captain Dodd trusted that sum to _us_ before he had the fit； beyond this all is conjecture。'
〃Mamma looked at me again； and said； 'What am I to do； or say？'
'I screamed； 'Do nothing； say nothing： oh pray； pray make him hold his tongue； and let the vile money go。 It is not _his_ fault。'
〃'Do？' said the obstinate creature： 'why tell Edward； and let him employ a sharp attorney： you have a supple antagonist and a daring one。 Need I say I have tried persuasion； and even bribes： but he defies me。 Set an attorney on him； or the police。 Fiat Justitia； ruat coelum。' I put both hands out to him and burst out 'Oh； Alfred； why did you tell？ A son expose his own father？ For shame； for shame！ I have suspected it all long ago： but _I_ would never have told。'
〃He started a little； but said； 'Miss Dodd； you were very generous to me： but that is not exactly a reason why I should be a cur to you； and an accomplice in a theft by which you suffer。 I have no pretensions to religion like my sister： so I can't afford to tamper with plain right and wrong。 What； look calmly on and see one man defraud another？ I can't do it。 See _you_ defrauded？ you； Mrs。 Dodd； for whom I profess affection and friendship？ You； Miss Dodd； for whom I profess love and constancy？ Stand and see you swindled into poverty？ Of what do you think I am made？ My stomach rises against it； my blood boils against it； my flesh creeps at it； my soul loathes it：' then after this great burst he seemed to turn _so_ feeble： 'Oh；' said he； faltering； 'I know what I have done； I have signed the death warrant of our love； dear to me as life。 But I can't help it。 Oh； Julia； Julia； my lost love； you can never look on me again； you must not love a man you cannot marry。 Cheat Hardie's wretched son。 But what could I do？ Fate offers me but the miserable choice of desolation or cowardly rascality。 I choose desolation and I mean to stand by my choice like a man。 So good…bye； ladies。'
〃The poor proud creature rose from his seat； and bowed stiffly and haughtily to us both； and was going away without another word； and I do believe for ever。 But his soul had been too great for his body； his poor lips turned pale and he staggered； and would have fallen； but mamma screamed to me； and she he loves so dearly； and abandons so cruelly； woke from a stupor of despair； and flew and caught him fainting in these arms。〃
CHAPTER XXVII
〃WE laid the poor proud creature on the sofa； and bathed his face with eau de Cologne。 He spoke directly； and said that was nice； and 'His head！ his head！' And I don't think he was ever quite insensible； but he did not know what was going on； for presently he opened his eyes wide； and stared at us so； and then closed them with； oh such a sigh； it swelled my heart almost to bursting。 And to think I could say nothing： but mamma soothed him and insisted on his keeping quiet； for he wanted to run away from us。 She was never so good to him before： she said； 'My dear child； you have my pity and my esteem； alas！ that at your age you should be tried like this。 How few in this sorry world would have acted like you： I should have sided with my own flesh and blood； for one。'
〃'What； right or wrong？' he asked。
〃'Yes；' said she； 'right or wrong。' Then she turned to me： 'Julia； shall all the generosity be on his side？'
〃I kissed her and clung to her； but dared not speak； but I was mad enough to hope； I scarcely know what； till she said in the same kind； sorrowful voice； 'I agree with you； you can never be my son； nor Julia's husband。 But as for that money； it revolts me to proceed to extremes against one； who after all is your father； my poor； poor； chivalrous boy。' But she would decide nothing without Edward； he had taken his father's place in this house。 So then I gave all up； for Edward is made of iron。 Alfred was clearer sighted than I； and never had a hope： he put his arm round mamma and kissed her； and she kissed him： and he kissed my hand； and crept away； and I heard his step on the stair； and on the road ever so far； and life seemed ended for me when I heard it no more。
〃Edward has come home。 Mamma told him all： he listened gravely： I hung upon his hips； and at last the oracle spoke； and said 'This is a nice muddle。'
〃More we could not get from him； he must sleep on it。 O suspense！ you torture！ He had seen a place he thinks will suit us： it is a bad omen his saying that so soon after。 As I went to bed I could not help whispering； 'If he and I are parted； so will you and Jane。' The cruel boy answered me 燺out loud；_ 'Thank you； little girl： that is a temptation； and you have put me on my guard。'
〃Oh； how hard it is to understand a _man！_ they _are_ so impracticable with their justice and things。 I came away with my cheeks burning； and my heart like a stone； to bed； but not to sleep。 My poor； poor unhappy； noble Alfred！〃
_〃Dec。 27th。_Mamma and Edward have discussed it： they say nothing to me。 Can they have written to him？ I go about my duties like a ghost； and pray for submission to the Divine will。〃
_〃Dec。 28th_To…day as I was reading by main force to Mrs。 Eagleton's sick girl； came Sarah all in a hurry with； I was wanted； Miss。 But I _would_ finish my chapter； and O how hard the devil tried to make me gabble it； so I clenched my teeth at him； and read it as if I was spelling it； and then _didn't_ I fly？
_〃He_ was there； and they all sat waiting for me。 I was hot and cold all at the same time； and he rose and bowed to me； and I curtseyed to him； and sat down and took my work； and didn't know one bit what I was doing。
〃And our new oracle； Edward； laid down the la