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〃DEAR MRS。 DODD；I have gained some victories in my life； but not one without two defeats to begin with； how then can I expect to obtain such a prize as dear Julia without a check or two？ You need not fear that I shall intrude after your appeal to me as a gentleman： but I am not going to give in because my father has written a hasty letter from Yorkshire。 He and I must have many a talk face to face before I consent to be miserable for life。 Dear Mrs。 Dodd； at first receipt of your cruel letter； so kindly worded； I was broken…hearted； but now I am myself again： difficulties are made for ladies to yield to； and for men to conquer。 Only for pity's sake do not you be my enemy； do not set her against me for my father's fault。 Think； if you can； how my heart bleeds at closing this letter without one word to her I love better； a thousand times better； than my lifeI am； dear Mrs。 Dodd； yours sorrowfully； but not despairing；
〃ALFRED HARDIE。〃
Mrs。 Dodd kept this letter to herself。 She could not read it quite unmoved； and therefore she felt sure it would disturb her daughter's heart the more。
Alfred had now a soft but dangerous antagonist in Mrs。 Dodd。 All the mother was in arms to secure her daughter's happiness； _coute qu'il coute！_ and the surest course seemed to be to detach her affections from Alfred。 What hope of a peaceful heart without this？ and what real happiness without peace？ But； too wise and calm to interfere blindly； she watched her daughter day and night； to find whether Love or Pride was the stronger； and this is what she observed
Julia never mentioned Alfred。 She sought occupation eagerly： came oftener than usual for money； saying； it was for 〃Luxury。〃 She visited the poor more constantly； taking one of the maids with her； at Mrs。 Dodd's request。 She studied Logic with Edward。 She went to bed rather early； fatigued； it would appear； by her activity： and she gave the clue to her own conduct one day： 〃Mamma；〃 said she； nobody is downright unhappy who is good。〃
Mrs。 Dodd noticed also a certain wildness and almost violence； with which she threw herself into her occupations； and a worn look about the eyes that told of a hidden conflict。 On the whole Mrs。 Dodd was hopeful； for she had never imagined the cure would be speedy or easy。 To see her child on the right road was much。 Only the great healer Time could 〃medicine her to that sweet peace which once she owned；〃 and even Time cannot give her back her childhood； thought the mother； with a sigh。
One day came an invitation to an evening party at a house where they always wound up with dancing。 Mrs。 Dodd was for declining as usual for since that night Julia had shunned parties。 〃Give me the sorrows of the poor and afflicted；〃 was her cry； 〃the gaiety of the hollow world jars me more than I can bear。〃 But now she caught with a sort of eagerness at this invitation。 〃Accept。 They shall not say I am wearing the willow。〃
〃My brave girl；〃 said Mrs。 Dodd joyfully； 〃I would not press it； but you are right； we owe it to ourselves to outface scandal。 Still； let there be no precipitation； we must not undertake beyond our strength。〃
〃Try me to…night；〃 said Julia； 〃you don't know what I can do。 I dare say _he_ is not pining for _me。_〃
She was the life and soul of the party； and； indeed； so feverishly brilliant； that Mrs。 Dodd said softly to her； 〃Gently； love； moderate your spirits； or they will deceive our friends as little as they do me。〃
Meantime it cost Alfred Hardie a severe struggle to keep altogether aloof from Julia。 In fact； it was a state of daily self…denial； to which he would never have committed himself； but that he was quite sure he could gradually win his father over。 At his age we are apt to count without our antagonist。
Mr。 Richard Hardie was 〃a long…headed man。〃 He knew the consequence of giving one's reasons： eternal discussion ending in war。 He had taken care not to give any to Mrs。 Dodd； and he was as guarded and reserved with Alfred。 The young man begged to know the why and the wherefore； and being repulsed； employed all his art to elicit them by surprise； or get at them by inference： but all in vain。 Hardie senior was impenetrable； and inquiry； petulance； tenderness； logic； were all shattered on him as the waves break on Ailsa Craig。
Thus began dissension； decently conducted at first； between a father indulgent hitherto and an affectionate son。
In this unfortunate collision of two strong and kindred natures； every advantage was at present on the father's side： age； experience； authority； resolution； hidden and powerful motives； to which my reader even has no clue as yet； a purpose immutable and concealed。 Add to these a colder nature and a far colder affection； for Alfred loved his father dearly。
At last； one day； the impetuous one lost his self…command； and said he was a son； not a slave； and had little respect for Authority when afraid or ashamed to appeal to Reason。 Hardie senior turned on him with a gravity and dignity no man could wear more naturally。 〃Alfred； have I been an unkind father to you all these years？〃
〃Oh no； father； no； I have said nothing that can be so construed。 And that is the mystery to me； you are acting quite out of character。〃
〃Have I been one of those interfering； pragmatical fathers who cannot let their children enjoy themselves their own way？〃
〃No； sir； you have never interfered； except to pay for anything I wanted。〃
〃Then make the one return in your power； young man： have a little faith in such a father； and believe that he does not interfere now but for your good； and under a stern necessity； and that when he does interfere for once； and say； 'This thing shall not be；' it shall not beby Heaven！〃
Alfred was overpowered by the weight and solemnity of this。 Sorrow； vexation； and despondency all rushed into his heart together； and unmanned him for a moment； he buried his face in his hands； and something very like a sob burst from his young heart。 At this Hardie senior took up the newspaper with imperturbable coldness； and wore a slight curl of the lip。 All this was hardly genuine； for he was not altogether unmoved； but he was a man of rare self…command； and chose to impress on Alfred that he was no more to be broken or melted than a mere rock。
It is always precarious to act a part； and this cynicism was rather able than wise： Alfred looked up and watched him keenly as he read the monetary article with tranquil interest； and then； for the first time in his life； it flashed into the young man's mind that his father was not a father。 〃I never knew him till now；〃 thought he。 〃This man is ＇Greek text＇。〃*
*Without bowels of affection。
Thus a gesture； so to speak； sowed the first seed of downright disunion in Richard Hardie's housedisunion； a fast…growing plant； when men set it in the soil of the passions。
Alfred； unlike Julia； had no panacea。 Had any lips； except perhaps hers； told him that 〃to be good is to be happy here below；〃 he would have replied： _〃Negatur；_ contradicted by daily experience。〃 It never occurred to him； therefore； to go out of himself； and sympathise with the sordid sorrows of the poor； and their bottomless egotism in contact with the well…to…do。 He brooded