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the aspern papers-第24章

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on the spot。



〃We can't talk thereshe will hear us。〃



I was on the point of replying that in that case we would

sit silent; but I was too conscious that this would not do;

as there was something I desired immensely to ask her。

So I proposed that we should walk a little in the sala; keeping

more at the other end; where we should not disturb the old lady。

Miss Tita assented unconditionally; the doctor was coming again;

she said; and she would be there to meet him at the door。

We strolled through the fine superfluous hall; where on

the marble floorparticularly as at first we said nothing

our footsteps were more audible than I had expected。

When we reached the other endthe wide window; inveterately closed;

connecting with the balcony that overhung the canal

I suggested that we should remain there; as she would see

the doctor arrive still better。  I opened the window and we passed

out on the balcony。  The air of the canal seemed even heavier;

hotter than that of the sala。  The place was hushed and void;

the quiet neighborhood had gone to sleep。  A lamp; here and there;

over the narrow black water; glimmered in double; the voice

of a man going homeward singing; with his jacket on his

shoulder and his hat on his ear; came to us from a distance。

This did not prevent the scene from being very comme il faut;

as Miss Bordereau had called it the first time I saw her。

Presently a gondola passed along the canal with its slow

rhythmical plash; and as we listened we watched it in silence。

It did not stop; it did not carry the doctor; and after it

had gone on I said to Miss Tita:



〃And where are they nowthe things that were in the trunk?〃



〃In the trunk?〃



〃That green box you pointed out to me in her room。

You said her papers had been there; you seemed to imply that she

had transferred them。〃



〃Oh; yes; they are not in the trunk;〃 said Miss Tita。



〃May I ask if you have looked?〃



〃Yes; I have lookedfor you。〃



〃How for me; dear Miss Tita?  Do you mean you would have given them

to me if you had found them?〃  I asked; almost trembling。



She delayed to reply and I waited。  Suddenly she broke out;

〃I don't know what I would dowhat I wouldn't!〃



〃Would you look againsomewhere else?〃



She had spoken with a strange unexpected emotion; and she went

on in the same tone:  〃I can'tI can'twhile she lies there。

It isn't decent。〃



〃No; it isn't decent;〃 I replied gravely。  〃Let the poor lady rest

in peace。〃  And the words; on my lips; were not hypocritical;

for I felt reprimanded and shamed。



Miss Tita added in a moment; as if she had guessed this

and were sorry for me; but at the same time wished to explain

that I did drive her on or at least did insist too much:

〃I can't deceive her that way。  I can't deceive her

perhaps on her deathbed。〃



〃Heaven forbid I should ask you; though I have been guilty myself!〃



〃You have been guilty?〃



〃I have sailed under false colors。〃  I felt now as if I must tell

her that I had given her an invented name; on account of my fear

that her aunt would have heard of me and would refuse to take me in。

I explained this and also that I had really been a party to the letter

written to them by John Cumnor months before。



She listened with great attention; looking at me with parted lips;

and when I had made my confession she said; 〃Then your real name

what is it?〃  She repeated it over twice when I had told her;

accompanying it with the exclamation 〃Gracious; gracious!〃

Then she added; 〃I like your own best。〃



〃So do I;〃 I said; laughing。  〃Ouf! it's a relief to get rid

of the other。〃



〃So it was a regular plota kind of conspiracy?〃



〃Oh; a conspiracywe were only two;〃 I replied; leaving out

Mrs。 Prest of course。



She hesitated; I thought she was perhaps going to say that we had been

very base。  But she remarked after a moment; in a candid; wondering way;

〃How much you must want them!〃



〃Oh; I do; passionately!〃  I conceded; smiling。  And this chance

made me go on; forgetting my compunction of a moment before。

〃How can she possibly have changed their place herself?

How can she walk?  How can she arrive at that sort of muscular exertion?

How can she lift and carry things?〃



〃Oh; when one wants and when one has so much will!〃 said Miss Tita;

as if she had thought over my question already herself and had simply

had no choice but that answerthe idea that in the dead of night;

or at some moment when the coast was clear; the old woman had been

capable of a miraculous effort。



〃Have you questioned Olimpia?  Hasn't she helped herhasn't she

done it for her?〃  I asked; to which Miss Tita replied promptly and

positively that their servant had had nothing to do with the matter;

though without admitting definitely that she had spoken to her。

It was as if she were a little shy; a little ashamed now of letting me

see how much she had entered into my uneasiness and had me on her mind。

Suddenly she said to me; without any immediate relevance:



〃I feel as if you were a new person; now that you have got a new name。〃



〃It isn't a new one; it is a very good old one; thank heaven!〃



She looked at me a moment。  〃I do like it better。〃



〃Oh; if you didn't I would almost go on with the other!〃



〃Would you really?〃



I laughed again; but for all answer to this inquiry I said;

〃Of course if she can rummage about that way she can perfectly

have burnt them。〃



〃You must waityou must wait;〃 Miss Tita moralized mournfully;

and her tone ministered little to my patience; for it

seemed after all to accept that wretched possibility。

I would teach myself to wait; I declared nevertheless;

because in the first place I could not do otherwise and in

the second I had her promise; given me the other night;

that she would help me。



〃Of course if the papers are gone that's no use;〃 she said;

not as if she wished to recede; but only to be conscientious。



〃Naturally。  But if you could only find out!〃  I groaned; quivering again。



〃I thought you said you would wait。〃



〃Oh; you mean wait even for that?〃



〃For what then?〃



〃Oh; nothing;〃 I replied; rather foolishly; being ashamed

to tell her what had been implied in my submission to delay

the idea that she would do more than merely find out。

I know not whether she guessed this; at all events she appeared

to become aware of the necessity for being a little more rigid。



〃I didn't promise to deceive; did I?  I don't think I did。〃



〃It doesn't much matter whether you did or not; for you couldn't!〃



I don't think Miss Tita would have contested this event had she not been

diverted by our seeing the doctor's gondola shoot into the little canal

and approach the house。  I noted that he came as fast as if he believed

that Miss Bordereau was still in danger。  We looked down at him

while he disembarked and then went back into the sala to meet him。

When he came up howeve
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