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who was simply hearsay to her; quite as he was to me。 Only she had
lived for years with Juliana; she had seen and handled the papers and
(even though she was stupid) some esoteric knowledge had rubbed off on her。
That was what the old woman representedesoteric knowledge;
and this was the idea with which my editorial heart used to thrill。
It literally beat faster often; of an evening; when I had been out;
as I stopped with my candle in the re…echoing hall on my way up to bed。
It was as if at such a moment as that; in the stillness; after the long
contradiction of the day; Miss Bordereau's secrets were in the air;
the wonder of her survival more palpable。 These were the acute impressions。
I had them in another form; with more of a certain sort of reciprocity;
during the hours that I sat in the garden looking up over the top
of my book at the closed windows of my hostess。 In these windows
no sign of life ever appeared; it was as if; for fear of my catching
a glimpse of them; the two ladies passed their days in the dark。
But this only proved to me that they had something to conceal;
which was what I had wished to demonstrate。 Their motionless shutters
became as expressive as eyes consciously closed; and I took comfort
in thinking that at all events through invisible themselves they saw me
between the lashes。
I made a point of spending as much time as possible in the garden;
to justify the picture I had originally given of my horticultural passion。
And I not only spent time; but (hang it! as I said) I spent money。
As soon as I had got my rooms arranged and could give the proper
thought to the matter I surveyed the place with a clever expert
and made terms for having it put in order。 I was sorry to do this;
for personally I liked it better as it was; with its weeds and its wild;
rough tangle; its sweet; characteristic Venetian shabbiness。
I had to be consistent; to keep my promise that I would smother
the house in flowers。 Moreover I formed this graceful project that
by flowers I would make my wayI would succeed by big nosegays。
I would batter the old women with liliesI would bombard their
citadel with roses。 Their door would have to yield to the pressure
when a mountain of carnations should be piled up against it。
The place in truth had been brutally neglected。 The Venetian capacity
for dawdling is of the largest; and for a good many days unlimited
litter was all my gardener had to show for his ministrations。
There was a great digging of holes and carting about of earth;
and after a while I grew so impatient that I had thoughts of
sending for my bouquets to the nearest stand。 But I reflected
that the ladies would see through the chinks of their shutters
that they must have been bought and might make up their minds
from this that I was a humbug。 So I composed myself and finally;
though the delay was long; perceived some appearances of bloom。
This encouraged me; and I waited serenely enough till they multiplied。
Meanwhile the real summer days arrived and began to pass; and as I
look back upon them they seem to me almost the happiest of my life。
I took more and more care to be in the garden whenever it was not too hot。
I had an arbor arranged and a low table and an armchair put into it;
and I carried out books and portfolios (I had always some business
of writing in hand); and worked and waited and mused and hoped;
while the golden hours elapsed and the plants drank in the light
and the inscrutable old palace turned pale and then; as the day waned;
began to flush in it and my papers rustled in the wandering breeze
of the Adriatic。
Considering how little satisfaction I got from it at first it
is remarkable that I should not have grown more tired of wondering
what mystic rites of ennui the Misses Bordereau celebrated in their
darkened rooms; whether this had always been the tenor of their life
and how in previous years they had escaped elbowing their neighbors。
It was clear that they must have had other habits and other circumstances;
that they must once have been young or at least middle…aged。
There was no end to the questions it was possible to ask about
them and no end to the answers it was not possible to frame。
I had known many of my country…people in Europe and was familiar
with the strange ways they were liable to take up there; but the Misses
Bordereau formed altogether a new type of the American absentee。
Indeed it was plain that the American name had ceased to have
any application to themI had seen this in the ten minutes I
spent in the old woman's room。 You could never have said whence
they came; from the appearance of either of them; wherever it
was they had long ago dropped the local accent and fashion。
There was nothing in them that one recognized; and putting the question
of speech aside they might have been Norwegians or Spaniards。
Miss Bordereau; after all; had been in Europe nearly three…quarters
of a century; it appeared by some verses addressed to her by
Aspern on the occasion of his own second absence from America
verses of which Cumnor and I had after infinite conjecture
established solidly enough the datethat she was even then;
as a girl of twenty; on the foreign side of the sea。
There was an implication in the poem (I hope not just for the phrase)
that he had come back for her sake。 We had no real light upon her
circumstances at that moment; any more than we had upon her origin;
which we believed to be of the sort usually spoken of as modest。
Cumnor had a theory that she had been a governess in some family
in which the poet visited and that; in consequence of her position;
there was from the first something unavowed; or rather something
positively clandestine; in their relations。 I on the other hand
had hatched a little romance according to which she was the daughter
of an artist; a painter or a sculptor; who had left the western
world when the century was fresh; to study in the ancient schools。
It was essential to my hypothesis that this amiable man should have
lost his wife; should have been poor and unsuccessful and should
have had a second daughter; of a disposition quite different
from Juliana's。 It was also indispensable that he should have been
accompanied to Europe by these young ladies and should have established
himself there for the remainder of a struggling; saddened life。
There was a further implication that Miss Bordereau had had in her youth
a perverse and adventurous; albeit a generous and fascinating character;
and that she had passed through some singular vicissitudes。
By what passions had she been ravaged; by what sufferings had
she been blanched; what store of memories had she laid away for
the monotonous future?
I asked myself these things as I sat spinning theories
about her in my arbor and the bees droned in the flowers。
It was incontestable that; whether for right or for wrong;
most readers of certain of Aspern's poems (poems not as
ambiguous as the so