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railway back to Sydenham。 Having decided not to mention the bad news
about Lucilla's sight to Oscar； until I had seen the German first； I made
the best excuse that suggested itself； and drove awayleaving the two
gentlemen in the waiting…room at the station。
I found Grosse confined to his easy…chair； with his gouty foot enveloped
in cool cabbage…leaves。 Between pain and anxiety； his eyes were wilder；
his broken English was more grotesque than ever。 When I appeared at the
door of his room and said good morningin the frenzy of his impatience
he shook his fist at me。
〃Good morning go…damn！〃 he roared out； 〃Where？ where？ where is Feench？〃
I told him where we believed Lucilla to be。 Grosse turned his head； and
shook his fist at a bottle on the chimney…piece next。
〃Get that bottles on the chimney；〃 he said。 〃And the eye…baths by the
side of him。 Don't stop with your talky…talky…chatterations here。 Go！
Save her eyes。 Look！ You do this。 You throw her head backsoh！〃 He
illustrated the position so forcibly with his own head that he shook his
gouty foot； and screamed with the pain of it。 He went on nevertheless；
glaring frightfully through his spectacles； gnashing his mustache
fiercely between his teeth。 〃Throw her head back。 Fill the eye…baths；
turn him upsides…down over her open eyes。 Drown them turn…turn…about in
my mixtures。 Drown them； I say； one…down…todder…come…on； and if she
screech never mind it。 Then bring her to me。 For the lofe of Gott； bring
her to me。 If you tie her hands and foots； bring her to me。 What is the
womans stopping for？ Go！ go！ go！〃
〃I want to ask you a question about Oscar；〃 I said； 〃before I go。〃
He seized the pillow which supported his headevidently intending to
expedite my departure by throwing it at me。 I produced the railway
time…table as the best defensive weapon at my command。 〃Look at it for
yourself；〃 I said； 〃and you will see that I must wait at the station； if
I don't wait here。〃
With some difficulty； I satisfied him that it was impossible to leave
London for Sydenham before a certain hour； and that I had at least ten
minutes to spare which might be just as well passed in consulting him。 He
closed his glaring eyes； and laid his head back on the chair； thoroughly
exhausted with his own outbreak of excitement。 〃No matter how things
goes；〃 he said； 〃a womans must wag her tongue。 Goot。 Wag yours。〃
〃I am placed in a very difficult position；〃 I began。 〃Oscar is going with
me to Lucilla。 I shall of course take care； in the first place； that he
and Nugent do not meet； unless I am present at the interview。 But I am
not equally sure of what I ought to do in the case of Lucilla。 Must I
keep them apart until I have first prepared her to see Oscar？〃
〃Let her see the devil himself if you like；〃 growled Grosse； 〃so long as
you bring her here afterwards…directly to me。 You will do the bettermost
thing； if you prepare Oscar。 _She_ wants no preparations！ She is enough
disappointed in him as it is！〃
〃Disappointed in him！〃 I repeated。 〃I don't understand you。〃
He settled himself wearily in his chair； and referred； in a softened and
saddened tone； to that private conversation of his with Lucilla； at
Ramsgate； which has already been reported in the Journal。 I was now
informed； for the first time； of those changes in her sensations and in
her ways of thinking which had so keenly vexed and mortified her。 I heard
of the ominous absence of the old thrill of pleasure； when Nugent took
her hand on meeting her at the seasideI heard how bitterly his personal
appearance had disappointed her （when she had seen his features in
detail） by comparison with the charming ideal picture which she had
formed of her lover in the days of her blindness： those happier days； as
she had called them； when she was Poor Miss Finch。
〃Surely；〃 I said； 〃all the old feelings will come back to her when she
sees Oscar？〃
〃They will never come back to herno； not if she sees fifty Oscars！〃
He was beginning to frighten me； or to irritate meI can hardly say
which。 I only know that I persisted in disputing with him。 〃When she sees
the true man；〃 I went on； 〃do you mean to say she will feel the same
disappointment？〃
I could get no farther than that。 He cut me short there； without
ceremony。
〃You foolish womans！〃 he interposed； 〃she will feel more than the same。 I
have told you already it was one enormous disappointments to her when she
saw the handsome brodder with the fair complexions。 Ask your own self
what it will be when she sees the ugly brodder with the blue face。 I tell
you this！she will think your true man the worst impostor of the two。〃
There I indignantly contradicted him。
〃His face _may_ be a disappointment to her；〃 I said〃I own that。 But
there it will end。 Her hand will tell her； when he takes it； that there
is no impostor deceiving her this time。〃
〃Her hand will tell her nothingno more than yours。 I had not so much
hard hearts in me as to say that to _her；_ when she asked me。 I say it to
_you。_ Hold your tongue and listen。 All those thrill…tingles that she
once had when he touched her； belong to anodder timethe time gone…by
when her sight was in her fingers and not in her eyes。 With those
fine…superfine…feelings of the days when she was blind； she pays now for
her grand new privilege of opening her eyes on the world。 （And worth the
price too！） Do you understand yet？ It is a sort of swop…bargain between
Nature and this poor girls of ours。 I take away your eyesI give you
your fine touch。 I give you your eyesI take away your fine touch。 Soh！
that is plain。 You see now。〃
I was too mortified and too miserable to answer him。 Through all our
later troubles； I had looked forward so confidently to Oscar's
re…appearance as the one sufficient condition on which Lucilla's
happiness would be certainly restored！ What had become of my
anticipations now？ I sat silent； staring in stupid depression at the
pattern of the carpet。 Grosse took out his watch。
〃Your ten…minutes…time has counted himself out；〃 he said。
I neither moved nor heeded him。 His ferocious eyes began to flame again
behind his monstrous spectacles。
〃Go…be…off…with…you！〃 he shouted at me as if I was deaf。 〃Her eyes！ her
eyes！ While you stop chatterboxing here； her eyes are in danger。 What
with her frettings and her cryings and her damn…nonsense…lofe…business； I
swear you my solemn oath her sight was in danger when I saw her a whole
fortnight gone…by。 Do you want my big pillow to fly bang at your head？
You don't want him？ Be…off…away with you then； or you will have him in
one…two…three time！ Be…off…awayand bring her back to me before night！〃
I returned to the railway。 Of all the women whom I passed in the crowded
streets； I doubt if one had a heavier heart in her bosom that morning
than mine。
To make matters worse still； my traveling companions （one in the
refreshment…room； and one pacing the platform） received my account of my
interview with Grosse in a manner which seriously disappointed and
discouraged me。 Mr。 Finch's inhuman conceit treated my melancholy news of
his daughter as a species of complimentary tribute to his own foresight。
〃You remembe