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s； offering their right hand to all the women。 〃We touch hands。〃 。 。 。 And then they would go away satisfied after receiving the hand clasp。
Desnoyers wandered a long time around the basilica where； in the shadow of the trees； were long rows of wheeled chairs occupied by the wounded。 Officers and soldiers rested many hours in the blue shade； watching their comrades who were able to use their legs。 The sacred grotto was resplendent with the lights from hundreds of candles。 Devout crowds were kneeling in the open air； fixing their eyes in supplication on the sacred stones whilst their thoughts were flying far away to the fields of battle； making their petitions with that confidence in divinity which accompanies every distress。 Among the kneeling mass were many soldiers with bandaged heads； kepis in hand and tearful eyes。
Up and down the double staircase of the basilica were flitting women； clad in white； with spotless headdresses that fluttered in such a way that they appeared like flying doves。 These were the nurses and Sisters of Charity guiding the steps of the injured。 Desnoyers thought he recognized Marguerite in every one of them； but the prompt disillusion following each of these discoveries soon made him doubtful about the outcome of his journey。 She was not in Lourdes； either。 He would never find her in that France so immeasurably expanded by the war that it had converted every town into a hospital。
His afternoon explorations were no more successful。 The employees listened to his interrogations with a distraught air。 He could come back again； just now they were taken up with the announcement that another hospital train was on the way。 The great battle was still going on near Paris。 They had to improvise lodgings for the new consignment of mutilated humanity。 In order to pass away the time until his return； Desnoyers went back to the garden near the grotto。 He was planning to return to Pau that night； there was evidently nothing more to do at Lourdes。 In what direction should he now continue his search？
Suddenly he felt a thrill down his backthe same indefinable sensation which used to warn him of her presence when they were meeting in the gardens of Paris。 Marguerite was going to present herself unexpectedly as in the old days without his knowing from exactly what spotas though she came up out of the earth or descended from the clouds。
After a second's thought he smiled bitterly。 Mere tricks of his desire！ Illusions！ 。 。 。 Upon turning his head he recognized the falsity of his hope。 Nobody was following his footsteps； he was the only being going down the center of the avenue。 Near him； in the diaphanous white of a guardian angel； was a nurse。 Poor blind man！ 。 。 。 Desnoyers was passing on when a quick movement on the part of the white…clad woman； an evident desire to escape notice； to hide her face by looking at the plants； attracted his attention。 He was slow in recognizing her。 Two little ringlets escaping from the band of her cap made him guess the hidden head of hair； the feet shod in white were the signs which enabled him to reconstruct the person somewhat disfigured by the severe uniform。 Her face was pale and sad。 There wasn't a trace left in it of the old vanities that used to give it its childish； doll…like beauty。 In the depths of those great； dark…circled eyes life seemed to be reflected in new forms。 。 。 。 Marguerite！
They stared at one another for a long while； as though hypnotized with surprise。 She looked alarmed when Desnoyers advanced a step toward her。 No 。 。 。 No！ Her eyes； her hands； her entire body seemed to protest； to repel his approach； to hold him motionless。 Fear that he might come near her； made her go toward him。 She said a few words to the soldier who remained on the bench； receiving across the bandage on his face a ray of sunlight which he did not appear to feel。 Then she rose； going to meet Julio； and continued forward； indicating by a gesture that they must find some place further on where the wounded man could not hear them。
She led the way to a side path from which she could see the blind man confided to her care。 They stood motionless； face to face。 Desnoyers wished to say many things； many 。 。 。 but he hesitated； not knowing how to frame his complaints； his pleadings； his endearments。 Far above all these thoughts towered one； fatal； dominant and wrathful。
〃Who is that man？〃
The spiteful accent； the harsh voice with which he said these words surprised him as though they came from someone else's mouth。
The nurse looked at him with her great limpid eyes； eyes that seemed forever freed from contractions of surprise or fear。 Her response slipped from her with equal directness。
〃It is Laurier。 。 。 。 It is my husband。〃
Laurier！ 。 。 。 Julio looked doubtfully and for a long time at the soldier before he could be convinced。 That blind officer motionless on the bench； that figure of heroic grief； was Laurier！ 。 。 。 At first glance； he appeared prematurely old with roughened and bronzed skin so furrowed with lines that they converged like rays around all the openings of his face。 His hair was beginning to whiten on the temples and in the beard which covered his cheeks。 He had lived twenty years in that one month。 。 。 。 At the same time he appeared younger； with a youthfulness that was radiating an inward vigor； with the strength of a soul which has suffered the most violent emotions and； firm and serene in the satisfaction of duty fulfilled； can no longer know fear。
As Desnoyers contemplated him； he felt both admiration and jealousy。 He was ashamed to admit the aversion inspired by the wounded man； so sorely wounded that he was unable to see what was going on around him。 His hatred was a form of cowardice； terrifying in its persistence。 How pensive were Marguerite's eyes if she took them off her patient for a few seconds！ 。 。 。 She had never looked at him in that way。 He knew all the amorous gradations of her glance； but her fixed gaze at this injured man was something entirely different； something that he had never seen before。
He spoke with the fury of a lover who discovers an infidelity。
〃And for this thing you have run away without warning； without a word！ 。 。 。 You have abandoned me in order to go in search of him。 。 。 。 Tell me； why did you come？ 。 。 。 Why did you come？〃。 。 。
〃I came because it was my duty。〃
Then she spoke like a mother who takes advantage of a parenthesis of surprise in an irascible child's temper； in order to counsel self… control； and explained how it had all happened。 She had received the news of Laurier's wounding just as she and her mother were preparing to leave Paris。 She had not hesitated an instant； her duty was to hasten to the aid of this man。 She had been doing a great deal of thinking in the last few weeks； the war had made her ponder much on the values in life。 Her eyes had been getting glimpses of new horizons； our destiny is not mere pleasure and selfish satisfaction； we ought to take our part in pain and sacrifice。
She had wanted to work for her country； to share the general stress； to serve as other women did； and since she was disposed to devote hersel