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ce of resentment。
〃You talk about advantage；〃 said Bernard。 〃I don't see what advantage it is to you to say that。〃
〃I want toI mustI will！ That 's the advantage！〃 This came out with a sudden sharpness of tone； she spoke more excitedly。 〃He does n't care a button for me； and he never did！ I don't know what he married me for。 He cares for something else he thinks of something else。 I don't know what it isI suppose it 's chemistry！〃
These words gave Bernard a certain shock； but he had his intelligence sufficiently in hand to contradict them with energy。
〃You labor under a monstrous delusion；〃 he exclaimed。 〃Your husband thinks you fascinating。〃
This epithet； pronounced with a fine distinctness； was ringing in the air when the door opened and Gordon came in。 He looked for a moment from Bernard to his wife； and then； approaching the latter； he said； softly
〃Do you know that he leaves us to…morrow？〃
CHAPTER XVIII
Bernard left then and went to California； but when he arrived there he asked himself why he had come； and was unable to mention any other reason than that he had announced it。 He began to feel restless again； and to drift back to that chronic chagrin which had accompanied him through his long journey in the East。 He succeeded； however； in keeping these unreasonable feelings at bay for some time； and he strove to occupy himself； to take an interest in Californian problems。 Bernard； however； was neither an economist nor a cattle…fancier； and he found that； as the phrase is； there was not a great deal to take hold of。 He wandered about； admired the climate and the big peaches； thought a while of going to Japan； and ended by going to Mexico。 In this way he passed several months； and justified； in the eyes of other people at least； his long journey across the Continent。 At last he made it again； in the opposite sense。 He went back to New York； where the summer had already begun； and here he invented a solution for the difficulty presented by life to a culpably unoccupied and ill…regulated man。 The solution was not in the least original； and I am almost ashamed to mention so stale and conventional a device。 Bernard simply hit upon the plan of returning to Europe。 Such as it was； however； he carried it out with an audacity worthy of a better cause； and was sensibly happier since he had made up his mind to it。 Gordon Wright and his wife were out of town； but Bernard went into the country； as boldly as you please； to inform them of his little project and take a long leave of them。 He had made his arrangements to sail immediately； and； as at such short notice it was impossible to find good quarters on one of the English vessels； he had engaged a berth on a French steamer； which would convey him to Havre。 On going down to Gordon's house in the country； he was conscious of a good deal of eagerness to know what had become of that latent irritation of which Blanche had given him a specimen。 Apparently it had quite subsided； Blanche was wreathed in smiles； she was living in a bower of roses。 Bernard； indeed； had no opportunity for investigating her state of mind； for he found several people in the house； and Blanche； who had an exalted standard of the duties of a hostess； was occupied in making life agreeable to her guests； most of whom were gentlemen。 She had in this way that great remedy for dissatisfaction which Bernard lackedsomething interesting to do。 Bernard felt a good deal of genuine sadness in taking leave of Gordon； to whom he contrived to feel even more kindly than in earlier days。 He had quite forgotten that Gordon was jealous of him which he was not； as Bernard said。 Certainly； Gordon showed nothing of it now； and nothing could have been more friendly than their parting。 Gordon； also； for a man who was never boisterous； seemed very contented。 He was fond of exercising hospitality； and he confessed to Bernard that he was just now in the humor for having his house full of people。 Fortune continued to gratify this generous taste； for just as Bernard was coming away another guest made his appearance。 The new…comer was none other than the Honourable Augustus Lovelock； who had just arrived in New York； and who； as he added； had long desired to visit the United States。 Bernard merely witnessed his arrival； and was struck with the fact that as he presented himself it seemed quite a surpriseBlanche really stopped chattering。
CHAPTER XIX
I have called it a stale expedient on Bernard Longueville's part to 〃go to Europe〃 again； like the most commonplace American； and it is certain that； as our young man stood and looked out of the window of his inn at Havre； an hour after his arrival at that sea…port； his adventure did not strike him as having any great freshness。 He had no plans nor intentions； he had not even any very definite desires。 He had felt the impulse to come back to Europe； and he had obeyed it； but now that he had arrived； his impulse seemed to have little more to say to him。 He perceived it； indeedmentallyin the attitude of a small street…boy playing upon his nose with that vulgar gesture which is supposed to represent the elation of successful fraud。 There was a large blank wall before his window； painted a dirty yellow and much discolored by the weather； a broad patch of summer sunlight rested upon it and brought out the full vulgarity of its complexion。 Bernard stared a while at this blank wall； which struck him in some degree as a symbol of his own present moral prospect。 Then suddenly he turned away； with the declaration that； whatever truth there might be in symbolism； he； at any rate； had not come to Europe to spend the precious remnant of his youth in a malodorous Norman sea…port。 The weather was very hot； and neither the hotel nor the town at large appeared to form an attractive sejour for persons of an irritable nostril。 To go to Paris； however； was hardly more attractive than to remain at Havre； for Bernard had a lively vision of the heated bitumen and the glaring frontages of the French capital。 But if a Norman town was close and dull； the Norman country was notoriously fresh and entertaining； and the next morning Bernard got into a caleche； with his luggage； and bade its proprietor drive him along the coast。 Once he had begun to rumble through this charming landscape； he was in much better humor with his situation； the air was freshened by a breeze from the sea； the blooming country； without walls or fences； lay open to the traveller's eye； the grain…fields and copses were shimmering in the summer wind； the pink…faced cottages peeped through the ripening orchard…boughs； and the gray towers of the old churches were silvered by the morning…light of France。
At the end of some three hours； Bernard arrived at a little watering…place which lay close upon the shore； in the embrace of a pair of white…armed cliffs。 It had a quaint and primitive aspect and a natural picturesqueness which commended it to Bernard's taste。 There was evidently a great deal of nature about it； and at this moment； nature； embodied in the clear； gay sunshine； in the blue and quiet sea； in the daisied grass of the high…shouldered downs； had an air of inviting the intelligent o